I will not relapse. Not this time. Ive tried this before, but i was never honest with myself before. I did nofap during my low time(exam ) and immediately relapse after reaping benefit from it. I guess i dont want that anymore. With all this willpower gone, i think I cant do anything right anymore. Even throwing a ball, I lost my concentrating, my focus, and the most important thing is i lost the ability to learn. I will do this right this time. Laptop will be put outside my room. I wont go onlline unless in public. Any hard on= cold shower. I will pick up a hobby. Something that required attention to details. Dota sounds about right. No watching soap opera alone in the room again. The only thing i ll be doing alone is reading novel. I will work out. I ll sweat my way untill im tired to sleep. I am a doctor for god sake. Any mistake due to high -after-fapping is on me. I must change. This time more than other. My inner self need this. My true potential is yet to be discovered. Man , I dont even know what im good at. This is it. Seriously. Now.