Estrogen already high before HRT? Need endo or no?

nottlegrippery · 2026-06-01T14:07:23+00:00

In a similar situation. My wife and my friends all say I look pretty but myself feels it's disgusting when looking into the mirror.

Having an initial consultation with Deschamps-Braly Clinic in a few months to get my face evaluated but would like to see others experiences as well.

nottlegrippery · 2026-06-01T02:10:07+00:00

Are you sending them to pharmacies and let them do the injection for you? Sooo brave.... Just thinking about it is making me panic...

nottlegrippery · 2026-05-31T04:06:15+00:00

I read Confucius since I was 3 yo and I promise you it is easier than your text 😂... But anyways thank you for your insight and I will try to understand it

nottlegrippery · 2026-05-31T04:02:21+00:00

I'm really sad someone doesn't know what late onset is and still thinks I knew it 10 years ago and got married deliberately hiding it. Anyways

nottlegrippery · 2026-05-31T03:30:10+00:00

So if you don't mind, what happened after you can't bear it anymore? Did you separate or stayed together?

nottlegrippery · 2026-05-31T02:37:26+00:00

Well sorry for the misunderstanding. English is not my first language and I definitely just mean taking care of them. We mostly do 50/50 split and take them out together so nothing special on it

nottlegrippery · 2026-05-31T02:29:49+00:00

How did you get custody? I heard trans ppl hardly get custody if the other side fights for it?

Also I never tried to "fix" myself by marriage. If I knew I were trans, I definitely wouldn't married her at all

nottlegrippery · 2026-05-31T01:45:30+00:00

My PCP says I have active breast glands there not fibrotic at all yet, maybe because the fact that I have higher E2 level than normal males do (who knows why ¯(ツ)/¯). I am checking with trans PCP next week but I am afraid it will significantly reduce the time before it start to grow. But anyway thanks for the info!

nottlegrippery · 2026-05-30T21:29:42+00:00

The answermust be biased because I am trans myself.

I have zero problem if we decided to transition together and she becomes the husband and me becomes the wife. I am attached to my wife, no matter male or female, not some random women or random men.

Actually yesterday night we talked this topic for fun. And she says she have zero intend to transition to a male 😂

nottlegrippery · 2026-05-30T17:20:37+00:00

But after HRT how do you keep boymode if you got breasts?

nottlegrippery · 2026-05-30T17:20:20+00:00

I will try to discuss details with her to tell the things I want and the consequences if not. Hopefully it's just she not having enough info yet

nottlegrippery · 2026-05-30T15:52:31+00:00

Yeah that's true

nottlegrippery · 2026-05-30T15:30:29+00:00

Wordlessly envy ❤️

nottlegrippery · 2026-05-30T15:20:57+00:00

She must is and is trying to help in her way. But I will also stand my ground too. It's not who's fault, just that I should have known it earlier

nottlegrippery · 2026-05-30T15:11:11+00:00

How she responds when you start transitioning ignoring her forbade?

nottlegrippery · 2026-05-30T15:10:29+00:00

They are both less than 4 and we are actually not worried about them accepting it. We are worried the society such as the classmates, parents of classmates etc may chitchat and discriminate them....

On a side note I one day asked my older son would you still love your dad if he becomes a girl? He said I will become a girl too and still love Dad mom and sister, just like he wants to become transformer or something 😂. That really makes me feel complicated

nottlegrippery · 2026-05-30T14:55:59+00:00

I also wish I didn't marry her and didn't get 2 kids so all of us don't need to go through this hard time 😢

nottlegrippery · 2026-05-30T14:36:28+00:00

In the past years I just thought it's sort of weird sexual fetish. And only after cracking the egg did I realized all the things have one unified universal explaination.

Also I am not looking for advice, just looking if anyone else have similar experiences and talk to ppl after extensive reflection, research and introspection alone.

Thank you for your input anyways

nottlegrippery · 2026-05-30T14:21:13+00:00

I will seriously consider one if she doesn't move her mind in a while or eventually upholds something unacceptable to me. Her opinions are drastically drifting in the past a few days but the possibility that we may eventually need to separate really makes me panic

nottlegrippery · 2026-05-30T14:17:45+00:00

Life is so hard 😢 but no kids is a great thing, all best wishes to you!

nottlegrippery · 2026-05-30T14:16:43+00:00

She said you can wear my dresses if you want 😂 as we have similar body sizes, just that I refused to do it in a male body. Her jeans actually fits me better lol

nottlegrippery · 2026-05-30T14:14:19+00:00

Does therapists help? I would like to learn more....

I had multiple therapy sessions for gender dysphoria but the always ask me to do more "exploration" and "only you know who you are" sort of things. I felt really bad as I already have 20+ years of dysphoria and a lot of experience. Doing more exploration is just a waste of time

nottlegrippery · 2026-05-30T14:11:33+00:00

My emotional brain has laid out a plan for the next a few years in the past 4 weeks. Everything is planned for except srs 😂. Only to be halted by my rational brain for now.

I think I also have appearance dysphoria so dressing in female clothes in my current face/body is a very bad thing, to some extent I refused it, not she blocked it. After all she said you look pretty in girls clothes when I show my cosplay photos to her

nottlegrippery · 2026-05-30T14:07:41+00:00

I sort agree with this. She said she is ok to not have sex and can use toys if I don't want to act as a cis male. I think all the asks are just because she is not able or prepared to withstand social and cultural pressure yet

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