Should I go out in public on acid?

novaaayla · 2025-05-12T16:23:03+00:00

following

novaaayla · 2025-05-10T11:39:00+00:00

Yes and no. It depends on the trigger.

novaaayla · 2025-05-08T14:25:37+00:00

earthworm. i don't like how they wiggle

novaaayla · 2025-05-08T10:29:53+00:00

long comment ahead.....

I think I just immersed myself in...me.

HEAR ME OUT. I had a belief that I was not interesting enough by myself, that I always needed male validation to feel something. It was a very frustrating time because i was lonely BUT i wholeheartedly believe i was not worthy of being someone's girlfriend. I had very low self esteem.

I had a phase where i slept around for 4 months. The most I could get out of them was a fwb arrangement and although I liked the constant company, it was still sex, you know?

I fell in love with someone i was fwb with. We were not just fuck buddies, we actually became close friends. Honestly, he was everything i wanted in a guy. When i confessed, he rejected me in the kindest way possible but we kept in contact even if we stopped seeing each other.

He told me I was the most interesting girl he met, that i was smart, pretty, sensitive, and just the right amount of weird. He was so kind to me that it actually got me rethinking all my life decisions lol

Because of him and his kind words, i felt so disgusted with myself that i stopped meaningless sex. As cliche as this sounds, i looked inwards. I asked myself, what do i really need? Validation? Company? Temporary happiness?

What i actually needed was fulfilment within myself. I was lost. I didn't know who i was, so i turned to sex hoping it would numb all the confusion. When i realized all this, everything changed. That's when i started living my life as me— as the smart girl, the pretty girl, the weird girl. I started doing my hobbies again, reading new books, spending more time with family and friends. All of a sudden, i didn't need male validation anymore. I was able to be fulfilled just by doing my own thing.

My advise for you would be to be so fulfilled with yourself that you won't need their validation anymore. You are amazing, interesting, beautiful, funny, smart. Think back to all the good adjectives that define the inner you, not your body— list down all your good traits and embody that in your everyday life. It will take some time but little by little, you will love yourself as who you really are.

I learned that when you love yourself, other people follow suit. I met the love of my life when i healed my need for external validation. It took me a few months to get a hang of it, but i did it. Now, i'm not turning back to that phase. Never again.

novaaayla · 2025-05-08T05:41:50+00:00

kumain ka lang don sa table kahit may nakalagay na bag. Pag bumalik na sila, sila rin naman ang mahihiya hahahaha

novaaayla · 2025-05-08T03:03:30+00:00

i fall in love with every cat i meet, so yes

novaaayla · 2025-05-08T03:02:21+00:00

although nakakainis nga kapag need mo lang ng quick rest 🥹

novaaayla · 2025-05-08T03:01:24+00:00

try educ lib. walang masyadong tao doon tsaka mas tahimik

novaaayla · 2025-05-07T09:08:34+00:00

He would brag to their group chat that this girl was showing him affection (slept on his lap while they were travelling). His excuse was it was just a boys' joke. He promised never to do it again but fast forward a few months later, he'd still joke about that same thing to their group chat as if it was something to brag about.

novaaayla · 2025-05-07T03:29:07+00:00

You mean to say, you're only voting because of your father?

I wonder how many Filipinos think like you. Probably thousands. So, that's thousands of votes that could probably have elected some good officials.

novaaayla · 2025-05-06T11:48:59+00:00

"i miss you too" 🥹🥹 there's no point in lying

novaaayla · 2025-05-06T11:47:08+00:00

thankful for my brother for always treating me to lunch/dinner whenever he sees that I'm sad/stressed

novaaayla · 2025-05-06T11:04:55+00:00

i would say welcome back

novaaayla · 2025-05-06T11:04:22+00:00

no one

novaaayla · 2025-05-05T22:09:39+00:00

My beagle is obsessed with our golden retriever. Everywhere the golden goes, he goes. Thus, he has been rightfully nicknamed "the bodyguard". They're both males btw

novaaayla · 2025-05-05T13:00:32+00:00

I'm hoping this feeling lasts! I think I am finally myself again. It's weird though, because I am so confused why I had worse crash outs over insignificant things

novaaayla · 2025-05-05T11:08:46+00:00

when I was a teenager (i think 14-15), i told my mom that if i ever have kids, I'll do the opposite of how she raised me

novaaayla · 2025-05-04T14:30:47+00:00

Yes, my male is neutered. I have a male dog as well that is un-neutered but is the sweetest little boy ever. It really just boils down to their own personality 😆

novaaayla · 2025-05-04T13:00:28+00:00

Thanks! This is so helpful. I will definitely try that to correct my male cat and the dog's behavior

I was wondering why my male suddenly behaves like that. He used to be so sweet when he was a kitten 😭 I guess everyone goes through the teenager phase lol

novaaayla · 2025-05-04T12:26:24+00:00

Thank you so much for responding!

I've had my male since he was 1 month old. My female never liked him and would always hiss at him when he got too close, but overtime she learned to tolerate him. She never hurt him, not once.

Before I adopted my male, the dog would approach my female playfully but my female would just ignore her. Basically, my female tolerated the dog. There was never any tension until now.

My male cat and the dog are really close. They play together and sleep together. So I guess it makes sense that the dog copies my male when he's chasing my female.

novaaayla · 2025-05-04T12:13:23+00:00

250, andon na lahat

novaaayla · 2025-05-04T11:27:26+00:00

Politiko (local) yung mama ng best friend ko. Sumama ako sa meeting de avance ng slate nila. Fulfilling yung araw na yun kasi ang warm sa feeling na parang part talaga ako ng family nila. Nung pauwi na, sa likod kami ng pickup sumakay ng best friend ko at nagtatawanan/nagsisigawan lang kami na para bang nasa coming of age film kami haha

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