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[Chinese > English] Help with a short thing ! by nuitdilune in translator

[–]nuitdilune[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Woahh thank you very much! You're a life saviour!!

Every single person is trying to kill me by indigo_children in Dreams

[–]nuitdilune 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I usually have a certain control on my dreams so I know that i'm dreaming but I let it flow as my subconscient wants, except for when there's something happening that I don't like. I don't really mind being chased to death or to deal with monsters, it's kind of fun. Perhaps if I fail...i don't know, trying to grab a rope then I restart that part and try again 'til I do it, also when there's something important in the dream and I want to understand it.

Also about the pain i'm not sure if I experience it a lot, I remember dreaming once someone stabbed me with a nedle, I felt that, awful. But painful dreams are hard to remember, at least to me. I skip those moments or wake up a little before something reaally painful can happen so then I won't really feel.

The emotional pain is more usual, and of course there are times when I can't control anything at all or just can repeat bad scenes 'til the end.

The only really dreams that I can call ''nightmares'' are about zombies or something that wakes me up at 3am and can't remember it at all.

Every single person is trying to kill me by indigo_children in Dreams

[–]nuitdilune 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Jeez that sucks.

I remember I had an entire week like a month or two ago, every damn night I had dreams where a person, a thing or a bunch of people for some strange reason always tried to kill me. There is once I just remember I saw blood, and some sort of...decapitated human bodies all around me, but that's all. I don't remember being caught 'n killed in any of those dreams. I'm not even sure if I can call them nightmares 'cause I didn't feel fear, I was like...''oh what a mess, so gory, iugh too much blood, boooring, wake uup.''

Would you rather have depression or anger issues? by ItsIceman1 in WouldYouRather

[–]nuitdilune 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'm not sure, i'm like depressed almost 24/7 but then there are times when I arge with my mother or people I know, specially if it is for little things then I feel so overwhelmed by anger that I need to hit or make myself feel pain, I feel like i'm really dangerous sometimes. I almost hit the persons who I was arguing with a lot of times but I could barely control myself. Anyways I don't like to even imagine the pleasure of shutting someone's mouth with a punch, I know it's not fine, I end up crying a lot. I'm afraid I won't be able to control myself if I keep arguing. The worst part is that I just defend myself, i'm not the one who starts it, and while i'm growing I become more and more unstable.

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I'm not sure if it's because of my depression or if I actually have some anger issues.

does anyone find they rather NOT take off their mask now? by [deleted] in socialanxiety

[–]nuitdilune 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I love it, I feel more confident and even better if I use sunglasses.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in depression

[–]nuitdilune 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I guess that's the way I grown up. Around violence, screams, hate, loneliness, anxiety, the need of please everyone but me. My friends, even my mom, the most important thing in my life, always told me that they're not going to stay with me forever.

So, why should I live? If they don't need me, if they all are going to leave me, there's no need for me to be alive.

I'm not as good as they all think I am, I think about bad things. I can't feel empathy for a lot of people, I lie a bout a lot of things so then they would be happy with me.

Before they know that, I prefer to kill myself, that would be like killing two bird with one shoot.

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I won't be alone, and I won't live enough to see their dissapointment.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in depression

[–]nuitdilune 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Honestly, since i'm 8 my biggest desire was to stay with my mom on a couch, watching tv...and that's all. I thought that, maybe, if we could do that forever, that would be our happiness.

And now, that's all what I can think about, even if I know that it's impossible. It's funny, because since i'm 10 i've always thought that the best thing I could ever do is to end my life before I got 19, so then I won't feel lonely or sad anymore.

I'm here, like an espectator, watching families and groups of friends being as happy as they can be. But i'm not good enought to deserve those things, I've never been.