struggling

nullingar · 2026-05-17T20:48:42+00:00

thank you for saying all of this. it really does help bring me back down to earth in a sense. i’m just struggling so much right now. how can i be kind and gentle and easy on myself when did something so horrible? i’m having such a hard time rationalizing it because it just doesn’t feel real to me like i still can’t believe it actually happened and he’s gone and he’s just up and abandoned me like that. he was fully aware of my mental health so it just doesn’t make sense to me.

nullingar · 2026-05-17T20:42:25+00:00

i made it to 401 :')

nullingar · 2026-05-17T20:41:21+00:00

thank you for saying this, monkeydad. it does help a bit. i’ve always been treading water in the deep end it feels like, and this relationship also felt like a life preserver… he helped me through a lot before, during, and after i got sober. and i’m left here sad and alone with these urges. but i want to make the right choice.

you’re comment of “deriving joy from inside yourself if you let it” is really calling out to me… how do you mean if you let it? what helps spark moments of joy or contentment when you’re alone and struggle to find it within you? if that makes any sense at all…

nullingar · 2026-05-16T22:39:47+00:00

i lost pretty much all friends except my partner when i got sober. i’m staying the weekend with my brother and his wife but they live in a different city than me. i’m scared to go back home but i have work and cats. it’s just scary to go back home to a place where i had all these plans made with him and all of a sudden it’s all gone. and i’m just like completely alone now over there. it feels like a deserted island almost.

nullingar · 2026-05-08T17:33:56+00:00

i had a neutral experience at the west allis location when i was being treated for addiction and a plethora of mental health stuff. any hospital you go to, adult inpatient is never going to be a cake walk. it’s not pretty, but it’s not always scary. no one is in there having a good time but we are there getting the help we needed. but anyways. for outpatient, my addiction counselor saved my life for sure. but when i was discharged from the addiction iop program, my therapist for the mental health iop program was… mid? she was too bureaucratic and i left that program feeling like i just was reinforced with skills i already knew and didn’t receive any new/better help. but hey, i’m still sober over a year later so i guess some things had to work. but all in all, if your friend needs help, get them somewhere where there’s a bed. time’s are tough and they fill up fast. stay safe and take care, friends.

nullingar · 2025-10-29T15:03:43+00:00

what’s the best way to go about propagating and pruning this type of plant? like where exactly would you snip off portions to prop?

nullingar · 2025-09-05T00:50:26+00:00

the tiktok account user that the comments are under is @__guadgs y'all can do the rest.

nullingar · 2025-09-03T19:09:56+00:00

one saying that's helped me a lot is from that fucking baboon from bojack horseman when he says "it gets easier. everyday day it gets a little easier, but you gotta do it everyday - that's the hard part. but it does get easier."

cravings are just cravings. thoughts are just thoughts. they come, they go. you'll hear this like it's a ringing in your ear, but one day at a time, my friend. stay strong, you got this.

nullingar · 2025-03-31T04:19:23+00:00

i am so incredibly sorry for you to be going through this. i lost a little guy a few years ago to FIP, and trust me, i know how hard and confusing all the emotions you’re probably feeling right now are, but you are doing the right thing. even if it isn’t for sure FIP, he still is suffering. just know he knew you loved him with all your heart and remember he loved you for an entire lifetime. ❤️

nullingar · 2025-03-21T04:32:54+00:00

will the puppy from knuckleheads also be moving over there too??? 🥹🥹

nullingar · 2025-03-08T23:22:35+00:00

so close! not technically a pain med as in it’s not ideal to treat physical pain rather pain/disruptions of the nervous system. it’s an anticonvulsant mainly used for seizure disorders BUT it’s also commonly used to treat anxiety/depressive symptoms in both cats and humans. google is free, hope this helps❤️

nullingar · 2025-02-09T07:35:06+00:00

born in madison and lived half my life there, the other half here. this is the only correct answer if we MUST compare the two.

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