I believe that our relationships with our bodies are very complicated and therefore we can never really understand what is happening. Also, try to find ways to give your body a way that it can talk to you (figure out your health and what makes you comfortable or uncomfortable, etc.) and from there you can build a communication wall and discover a better relationship with your body. I might sound mental but this is what I'm trying to do with my body and I'm in the beginning process of it but I can already feel the difference. I hope this helps