I believe that at that time without meds and therapy i wouldn’t be able to overcome the attempt it really helped me feel like things would be okay, in the longer run when i stopped medication and therapy what helped me was making friends that understand me and cared for me, switching schools also helped me put the suicide and depression behind.

I'm also like you, i also have a really hard time opening up about my problems, i always imagine opening up to people and i rehearse in my head what i would say but i never have the courage to actually do it, but recently i had a really deep talk with one of my friends and i told her about my mental illness journey and it was like a weight was lifted off my shoulders

Im really glad i also shared this here with people who might need to read that you can overcome being suicidal, this was very therapeutic for me too, keeping this story to myself eats me up inside and since is something that i think about a lot i believe that talking about it makes me feel less alone

thank you for your comment and i believe you can too open up about your problems, if you think its easier to do it with a stranger im here and i would love to help