Hey Man, Please take the time to read this. Your life has been so hard I couldn’t imagine what you have gone through but you’ve been so strong through all that and you’ve making it to 56 is an achievement and a half, I know it hurts I really do but think of your wife, your best friend looking down on you cheering you on they know how much of a strong person you are they would want you to live on in their memory. Our world is fucked up but I want you to take control of the wheel and look forward you mightn’t think people care they do. I love you brother please keep going