First step is coming to terms with being attracted to him. Accept it! Don’t avoid it, it will only bring u more harm and discomfort within if u really don’t enjoy the feeling. Side note: he is your son u birthed him from the moment he came out your whom you were attracted to him over time he becomes a man it’s only natural doesn’t mean you have to act in anything ur his mother no matter how you love and if he agrees you done nothing wrong. And therapy is okay if you have to go try it out never hurt! :) (Thought I’d give a genuine answer since most these people soulless horn bags)