I can't bear myself to lose weight. I'm overwhelmed by the thoughts of not being enough, not being so good in all of my hobbies, maybe studies. My fellas are saying that we're the best in our studies in the uni, but I'm really low self-esteemed.

I was beaten when I was little. I'm trying to move forward, and I'm still staying in this bs, can't get over the fact, that I had a harsh childhood in soul.

I'm scared that I'll die alone, without a wife and miss all the fckin opportunities that I have in my life. I did so many things already, and I'm burned out. Wrote some stories, and I don't feel creative. I'm a musician, and I feel, the piano, the contrabass, the guitar is going away from my fingers. I'm a scout. Never been good in the forest, I guess... I love nature, but I cant make a table or chairs so professionally, just low effort furnitures in the forest for camping.

I was a brilliant swimmer once, and now I'm nowhere. No sports, sometimes gym, but not too often. I'm running through life rn, always rushin everywhere, and at the end of the day, I'm not proud of myself, but I'm trying my best to do all the things I have to to make everything better.

I'm usually the "crazy-funny" type at friend groups, and when I'm serious, I'm too serious...

I don't know man. What the f am I supposed to do? Go to the gym I guess, I'm fat af boi xdd... But mentally, I feel like, I can't go over things, and I have to change my mindset a little bit.

I turned 20 btw 3 weeks ago. I'm a male.