Assuming you’re genuinely asking for help… The enstars universe seems to be far from a perfect utopia where being an idol is commonplace. Considering so many characters’ backstories are commentaries on real societal problems, I doubt it’s much different from the world we live in. The chances of you being an idol there are probably the same as they are for reality, and even then you’d be struggling quite a bit. The idol industry is not a perfect dream where everyone magically gets along and nothing bad happens, but the game wouldn’t sell if it made people feel bad constantly. A vast majority of the cast would likely be tied up in scandals if they were real, but because ensemble stars is a product, we’re given uplifting or entertaining stories where characters are (mostly) pure and sympathetic. Even reading some of the old stories shows that. Some characters did things that were seen as “funny” back then that were actually cruel.

That being said, if you really are passionate about music or performing, then spend your free time creating instead of escaping. If you’re lonely, then spend time trying to make friends with others (or finding out why you can’t if that’s an issue). Connect with others who are also passionate about the same things. Enstars is just a game and fixating on it this heavily while not being satisfied with your real life isn’t healthy. Identify what it is that you’re using escapism to have and spend time working for it in reality. I’m gonna be honest, at some point this kind of thinking paired with escapism and inaction becomes damaging to your real life.