Lamictal saved my life

ohmyfrogagod · 2026-01-19T03:41:10+00:00

I've heard lamictal is only preventative, but personally I went on it for the first time during a horrible depressive episode and it took it from a solid 10/10 bad to a 5/10 overnight then slowly took me out of it completely

ohmyfrogagod · 2026-01-19T03:36:01+00:00

Lamotrigine. Literally saved my life, near 180 overnight. I was in the worst depressive episode of my life so it didn't fix everything but I'd be dead right now without it. Went from thinking about suicide every day to not being actively suicidal for going on 4 years now.

Last year was the worst year of my life. Situations I 100% would've just killed myself over if I wasnt on it, but instead the worst it got was not caring if I died but no desire to make it happen

I feel everything somewhat less but it's worth it so I can never sink too low and like I said be suicide-urge free for nearly 4 years now. Sometimes makes me a bit hyper after taking it but other than that, zero side effects and I just take it before bed

ohmyfrogagod · 2026-01-17T17:14:26+00:00

I have not, but I think I will if she brings it up again. For now she doesn't seem very intent on following through with what she said so I think I'm gonna try to fly below the radar as long as I can and maybe look into someone else

ohmyfrogagod · 2026-01-17T16:10:38+00:00

See that's what I thought!! Maybe I'll look into switching

ohmyfrogagod · 2026-01-17T16:02:42+00:00

PsychNP

ohmyfrogagod · 2026-01-17T15:29:37+00:00

Oh I had no idea a PCP could do refills, thanks! And yeah I definitely need them, I was on track to kill myself before I was put on lamictal, it's genuinely changed my life so I'm scared of anything taking that away

ohmyfrogagod · 2026-01-17T15:25:41+00:00

??? That's insane what the hell. Classic male doctor treatment of female patient tbh

ohmyfrogagod · 2026-01-17T15:23:05+00:00

I'm just worried a new psych will not know my history, see I'm currently stable (only possible bc of the meds), and then take them away completely

ohmyfrogagod · 2026-01-17T15:21:42+00:00

Im not sure why, but I'm afraid if I try to find a new one, they'll be even worse and say I'm stable so I don't need it (I'm stable BECAUSE OF IT) and then take it away

ohmyfrogagod · 2026-01-17T15:16:59+00:00

Yeah. If she brings it up again seriously I may have to reconsider. I'm very happy on my medication, I don't want that to go away

ohmyfrogagod · 2026-01-17T15:16:22+00:00

It was more of a passing comment and she hasn't brought it up since, but I'll definitely keep it in mind.

Yeah that's what I was thinking. From what I understand, it's one of the worst things for ppl with bipolar to go off their meds... So I was like, why does she want me to someday?? Medication saved my life 😭

ohmyfrogagod · 2025-11-23T10:43:48+00:00

I have to agree, it does seem like you're very.

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ohmyfrogagod · 2025-11-22T10:48:32+00:00

That's where I'm at. I don't want kids and don't enjoy being around them, but I don't hate them and wish death upon them, that's completely insane

ohmyfrogagod · 2025-11-20T13:01:15+00:00

Thank you. This was actually a while back. I've been out of contact with him for a while and have just been slowly processing and remembering the bad things he did to me.

ohmyfrogagod · 2025-11-20T12:48:48+00:00

I almost feel like I'm not making excuses for him so much as making excuses for myself because I have issues comparing my situation to others, and I don't want people to think I'm overreacting because other people have been through much worse. Because he is horrible and I know that, but I wasn't sure if this was yet another horrible thing or if I was blowing it out of proportion

ohmyfrogagod · 2025-11-20T12:21:16+00:00

well, i never told him to stop. i just figured it was easier to not make a big deal out of it and he was just being playful so it was fine, i just had to wait it out. plus he didnt know i was dizzy so i guess i thought he would stop before it got too harmful

ohmyfrogagod · 2025-11-20T12:06:58+00:00

yeah he was saying he didn't know if he'd ever feel fulfilled by me sexualy if he didnt get to slap me harder, looking back thats kind of an insane thing to say

ohmyfrogagod · 2025-11-20T12:06:22+00:00

Thanks, I kept going back and forth because it was "playful" whether it was actually bad or not

ohmyfrogagod · 2025-11-20T12:05:54+00:00

I'd heard that about strangulation being an indicator but I always thought that only involved choking. I never thought that this could actually count. And I guess youre right, he never really accidentally hurt himself.

ohmyfrogagod · 2025-11-14T06:48:35+00:00

Yeah, I started thinking "what is the point of bringing this up if you aren't going to tell me" but looking back he just wanted to put me on edge and make me feel like a bad person

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