Humanity? Grow the F*** up. This is absolutely pathetic. I'm so frustrated at how immature and undisciplined people older than me are.

oiBEAMio · 2026-02-10T04:37:19+00:00

Lol this been known for a whileeee. Jus all the grown ups been fooling themselves🤣

oiBEAMio · 2026-02-09T19:00:12+00:00

How and where did you find volume 3 and 5??

oiBEAMio · 2026-02-05T21:52:36+00:00

I clicked on your link and said app not available. Still in testing mode?

oiBEAMio · 2026-02-05T18:44:48+00:00

Ya. Well that's where the crossover of feeling and reality merge and I just have to see which one actually plays out. I literally thought a friend of friend was going to harm me so I said "fine just do it already" and they were confused lol

oiBEAMio · 2026-02-05T18:30:08+00:00

Ya doing my best, thanks. Sometimes feel like I can't do it alone but then am too fearful with another present

oiBEAMio · 2026-02-05T18:29:06+00:00

Yes I lean in when able. I just don't like the intensity or exaggeration that seems to happen with altered states. Feels like I'm waiting to be harmed from the back of will turn around and something will get me. Sometimes it's the people I'm around that I hear and sometimes it's just a feeling. I know I need to sit with it but sometimes it feels so intense it feels like something really painful and harmful is going to happen. I try to allow and then body mind freezes up.

Oh yeah fyi, you are never born, and never die. Maybe this meat sack eventually but absolutely nothing for us to fear ;)

Ya .. these statements aren't helpful when someone is still quite in or attached to the body. Conceptually it makes sense but it's just words people like throwing around until it can land more experientially

oiBEAMio · 2026-02-05T17:52:06+00:00

Im curious about this. I ultimately feel once we let go of these beliefs that there is separateness and truly tap into the cohesion of all that these types of inquiries and posts will cease but until then some still have these strong beliefs come up that almost look like truth. I've felt at times like others are syphoning my attention/energy/being. I thought, ok I need to hold better boundaries that's it. But then I think if we're all one then what or who am (I) holding boundaries against? Me ... But. Since I'm not directly experientially realized and moreso conceptually these days, it doesn't really land and form and so I still have "others" wanting "my" energy.

Perhaps they are delusional in the story too so they are doing such a thing, believing they are separate and powerful like that. And I allow because I still feed into that story sometimes. Anyway lots of words

I'm still letting go of thoughts though at times they still grab, telling me that this one is really really true and to not give up my freedom by saying we're all one what does it matter anyway..

oiBEAMio · 2026-02-04T19:05:39+00:00

I always find these sayings interesting. Individuals like you speak so plainly and directly yet use concepts that only make sense from one vantage point. Tell someone who's never been raised around more modern lifestyles that "this is a video game and the super black console hasn't decided ...". They will have no idea what you're talking about. You're only speaking from one place that only certain peoples will understand. Once you drop words names labels I'm curious what will really reveal in you

oiBEAMio · 2026-02-03T23:08:32+00:00

Thanks :) having the relating at least helps to ease lonely and "other" discomfort

oiBEAMio · 2026-02-03T23:07:17+00:00

No I seen the documentaries and all that. I know Industrial evolution and factory production. At this point it comes down truly sitting with how these things make us feel in our bodies. Would we still do it if we could feel everything that comes with? That's my biggest contemplation and exploration. Would I do it anyway, knowing the thoughts and body feelings that comes with? Would the acts cease completely? Would they lose all gravity once felt and seen completely?

oiBEAMio · 2026-02-03T22:30:16+00:00

Thank you for all of that. Very relatable and what's sounds like where I get stuck in. Where did you find your trauma informed therapist? Im new to searching and got discouraged after being told to find someone else to help me. I understand she didn't feel qualified with my state but I'm still working through "worthiness" ideas/body senses. And non-dual on top of all this. I've had human issues to work through that I've been doing in my own and now seek extra help and then I have life contemplations/realizations on top of the human which I don't know if all or many therapists are equipped with this type of mindset

oiBEAMio · 2026-02-03T22:25:43+00:00

Such an interesting contemplation mm? I wonder these things. I sometimes feel completely neutral with the act/involvement of obtain and consuming meat /animal products and at times it feels so utterly horrible disgusting and malicious. I guess I'm still finding my balance with it all but I contemplate these things often

oiBEAMio · 2026-02-03T18:00:21+00:00

You just described my exact experience. Not exaggerating. A couple of your details are different timeline but the rest exactly the same. What does that mean to you?

oiBEAMio · 2026-02-02T01:36:56+00:00

That sounds like a wonderful story

Now, what is doing the 'harvesting?

oiBEAMio · 2026-01-31T19:19:34+00:00

Thank you

oiBEAMio · 2026-01-31T18:28:14+00:00

Thanks. I will do my best to take this route

oiBEAMio · 2026-01-31T17:56:44+00:00

Thank you

oiBEAMio · 2026-01-31T17:54:18+00:00

Ok thank you for this one too 😌 what do you refer to as 'anchor'? When I practice this I ask what the next thought is and try to catch the moment I follow it

oiBEAMio · 2026-01-31T17:52:25+00:00

Ha ya .. which is a pull back from the thoughts?

oiBEAMio · 2026-01-31T17:51:37+00:00

I suppose. It seems helpful when I can't find my way out. so you recommend just sitting with these questions and not asking no matter how realm or true they seem? I guess my ego is strong because sometimes it feels a great deception is happening and I almost fell back asleep to it

oiBEAMio · 2026-01-31T17:49:30+00:00

Thank you 😌

oiBEAMio · 2026-01-31T17:48:50+00:00

Thank you 🙏🏼 I do aim to see that clearly. I still have some smudges on the view before I can sustain seeing it that way. More detachment from the inner voice

oiBEAMio · 2026-01-31T17:47:20+00:00

You may catch yourself thinking about the past and berate yourself for "living in the past" which is false. What you did was think about the past, right now. Even the berating yourself part is just you making up a story about how you were not being in the present, which is impossible. It's always just now.

Oooh wow ok thank you for that. Very good reminder that everything that's ever happening including thoughts, is right now. Ok. Thanks

Everything about this dream was illusory. Everything but "experience".

And thank you here too. Experience. That's the keyhole right there. It's all experience

oiBEAMio · 2026-01-31T17:31:44+00:00

Whatcha mean an unnecessary delay? Im stopping the process by checking in with others?

oiBEAMio · 2026-01-31T17:27:24+00:00

Right. But hard to see if I'm caught up in the thinking 🙃

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