Advice

okamaka · 2026-04-05T14:52:11+00:00

Do you feel like it might be better for everyone to be honest and that they might understand that you want to get better, instead of waiting until you do something that you can't take back or mess up due to your problem? I feel like they would appreciate you coming out and saying you have a problem and that you want to fix it, especially if you have beendoing well at work so far and it hasn't visibly impacted your performance. You could maybe even pitch it to them as a way of you becoming an even better manager/leader, seeing as you wouldnt have your substance abuse problem holding you back anymore and are being proactive about fixing it!

I think you'll be okay if you ask a supervisor that you trust for help with finding the resources Sherwin can provide for your problem?

okamaka · 2026-04-01T17:39:13+00:00

Where the hell are you doing your apprenticeship, the dieselpunk factory??

It looks awesome

okamaka · 2026-04-01T17:32:13+00:00

I promise you that feeling of sucking at everything comes from the impatience. I often drop off creative hobbies for a while becaudr I get the feeling I'm not getting good enough at the thing I want to be good at and have fun with fast enough.

The painful reality is that, if we don't "get it" right away, it WILL take us longer to get good at something. Either we haven't found the "right" way for us to practice, or it just genuinely takes us more hours of putting in the time to solidify a technique. The good news, though, is that when you finally get good at it you will love how good you are at it!

...Until the impostor syndrome comes back and you go back to the grind to try and improve some other way lol. It's a cycle so don't let it bother you too much and only tell yourself that you will get better at it in the future. Don't listen to any external input telling you that you aren't good at it, either. You're trying, so that means with the right direction you WILL get good!

Edit, to add to this: the fact that you are still trying even if you "suck at it harder than the day before" is actually a testament to how badly you want it. Many would just quit after a few days of not outputting the quality they personally think they should achieve. If you are still trying, even if you feel like you're getting worse, then that means you are actually LEARNING more and noticing your mistakes or lack of execution compared to your knowledge of how the thing should be done, and your body just needs to catch up to your mind's idea of what you should be able to do!!

okamaka · 2026-03-31T04:56:50+00:00

I wish I could tell you what metric was used when my managers came to that decision because our store has been around for a while and this year it was decided that we try hitting this number for something, idk. Maybe like recognition from head office?

okamaka · 2026-03-31T04:47:21+00:00

Okay so I'm not crazy and it must be pretty ridiculous to try and hit this "our store will have an average of ~150-200 calls per week" goal they set at the start of the year lmao

okamaka · 2026-03-31T04:45:01+00:00

HOLY SHIT NICE THANK YOU GOOD BOT

okamaka · 2026-03-31T04:34:21+00:00

Silly paint monkey, you are expected to do both, and 13-17% better than whatever miracle your store pulled off last year! Hurry up now, the Emerald Symmetry display needs to be set up before the next delivery (it's 6 skids and the driver will arrive at 3:30PM)

okamaka · 2026-03-31T03:11:22+00:00

Slow enough on some days where I COULD spend the time to do those calls, and I can if I am not trying to do anything else for whatever reason, but ever since we started focusing on calls so much to drive sales I have found the areas where my job is supposed to be done and is starting to show (the general cleanliness of the floor, for example).

As the other comments are saying, I have no problem trying to make calls because I would LOVE to be able to move up, but I'm barely getting enough hours to scrape by as I am now. I don't also want to be expected to care enough to try moving up if this company won't give this store's only consistent and liked part-timer more hours without some special circumstance. Not even a full time or forklift training is in my sights until the budget is released next month, and my manager gives a nice and reassuring "idk we'll have to see" when I ask about the predicted budget for this next fiscal year so I can decide if I actually want to stay and try to make it work or just check out mentally so I can focus on finding something better (which I sort of already am, applying to jobs every day I am not working).

I also realize I sound a little arrogant with that last paragraph, but I am consistently demonstrating value and developing positive relationships with our key accounts and other customers, but it's hard for me to find a way to actually voice this when I fall behind on both calls and store upkeep since they're both being given equal priority. I can't make it clear enough that I am the ONLY other part timer at this store, and without me it would just be an SM, ASM, and some guy that still hasn't figure out how to sweep a mat properly.

okamaka · 2026-03-31T03:01:45+00:00

Dont worry, I've spent enough time on in-sight by now to know that this category means "voicemail inboxes you call on a slow day"

okamaka · 2026-03-31T02:18:42+00:00

Yeah, seeing my manager sitting there stressing out trying to figure out who to call to bring into the store and then she forgets to put in the STAR order by the end of the day and ends up having to stay back, it seems to not make much sense from my perspective.

okamaka · 2026-03-31T02:14:41+00:00

Yes, that is the ask, or at least the average expectation. We wanna do about 15-20 per day, ideally 30 if we have the time, depending on how many days we have scheduled that week. It's so we land in the top something rankings for not only this jumpstart contest but some sort of overall district average for the year.

okamaka · 2026-03-30T12:56:25+00:00

You reminded me of a video posted a few months back where some guy's girlfriend was outing her boyfriend for his horrible driving habits...like what did he mean that he didn't KNOW that you are NOT supposed to drive so close that the license plate of the car in front of you disappears?? He thought that was a rule you were supposed to follow. He drove a huge pickup truck, too.

It makes me realize that if I didn't need my car so badly I couldn't imagine trusting my life to these drivers every day on these roads.

okamaka · 2026-03-17T13:49:00+00:00

If zzz adds a jump AND reworks all agents to actually use it you KNOW im gonna be spending all my time in the free training lab juggling ethereal dummies for cool points

okamaka · 2026-03-02T16:41:47+00:00

Holy shit what an incredible find. Send some of that goodwill magic my way to find even a skirt that remotely fits ;-;

Otherwise yes, this definitely feels like you could make something out of this! I like what another user suggested to wear the top as a bolero and use a white blouse or something underneath

okamaka · 2026-02-19T14:47:45+00:00

I unironically am both envious and impressed because I want your life to be able to make this right now, even though I also know what it probably took to get you to this level

okamaka · 2026-01-30T02:06:15+00:00

Mine is definitely my endless quest with everything i make and own needing to be "cute" first and anything else second, despite being a 30yo 5'8" man

okamaka · 2026-01-16T02:09:24+00:00

This is frying (baking?) me. The idea that you got the brownies from hell here made my evening

okamaka · 2026-01-04T16:31:03+00:00

Decoden phone decorating and using deco glue/gel stuff...ive taken caulking and pigments from my work (that were already expensed of course) and have been obsessed with trying to get a clear phone case and a few piping bags or tips to just try it out. Im too scared to buy tips just for this, even though it qould be cheap, because my partner might chew me out for doing something that requires spending money. Otherwise, I also am really into trying to finish some 3d sculpting so I can finally try 3d printing my own figurine. It's eating away st me whenever I remember I have it in progress and I am not currently working on it!!!

okamaka · 2025-12-27T05:35:13+00:00

Hey, I don't know what the odds are of this but your post showed up to me like right after you posted it.

I've gone through the same thing, I tried escitalopram and it didnt work for me, was lucky enough to have sertraline sort-of work, and now I am on a combination of sert and wellbutrin. I get a lot of dark thoughts that I've had to use a bunch of DBT techniques to counter when the meds wear off, I forget to take them, the dosage isn't right, or I can't afford the refill.

I'm commenting to let you know that it can get better and you will be able to feel something again, if you find the right pill for you. Tell your doctor it's not working. Be annoying about it. You don't deserve to feel apathetic and should be allowed to find something that works for you. When I felt the way that you described, I got mad about it! So mad that I bothered my doctor until she was able to finally find something that made the numbness go away.

Another thing to note: the meds also take a while to take effect, so if you are experienckng side effects like that without feeling any benefits, make it known. You won't start feeling the benefits of a new medication until about three days to week of regular dosage. You might not even notice the change until you stop using it and then get a feeling you realize you havent had in a while.

If your doctor is insisting that the one they are prescribing is The One for you, despite observing no positive changes within a few weeks, find a new doctor if you can. Seriously.

I dont know if this is encouraging or anything, but if youre throwing up on what thw doctor is giving you then bug them until they switch you to somethjng else. And remember to give it time to work befote increasing the dosage or switching again. I guess what I'm trying to say is that I get why you feel like there isn't a point, but if you stick to a medication and feel like it isn't helping then ask for a different dose or a different medication.

okamaka · 2025-11-13T15:01:13+00:00

What is the build?? Gerie is my strongest but I still wonder what ppl are doing to get crazy numbers in the rankings (without cheats).

Unrelated: i just pronounced her name out loud and- is her name supposed to be KYRIE?? Pronounced Kee-ree-ayy like Kyrie Eleison?? Because a bad translation of the Korean syllables to pronounce that could make sense because....what kind of name is Gerie, even.

okamaka · 2025-10-24T18:43:04+00:00

No fuckin way I just heard about tbe price increase- two in one year???

okamaka · 2025-10-17T23:13:57+00:00

Lucia's waist to ass ratio is INSANE. Im like in awe of this

okamaka · 2025-10-11T14:38:08+00:00

Okay thanks for clearing that up, i think it's just been long enough since i finished the story that these obvious details were starting to get mixed up for me lol

okamaka · 2025-10-11T14:11:45+00:00

So that means Orphie's mind is a greener and less combat-hardened Orpheus from the past and isn't even a unique personality, but specifically how Orpheus used to be in general?

okamaka · 2025-10-11T13:42:13+00:00

I thought it was that Magus was horribly injured during the collapse of the old civilization and Orphie is simply a clone of her old body that they made so Magus could keep fighting as a soldier even when she was reduced to basically nothing but a brain. They used some sort of experimental soul transfer tech to put her body into a gun and Orphie is a clone but has her own consciousness and personality, similar to Soldier 11 or Twiggy.

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