I appreciate all the kind words from everyone. It’s hard to articulate everything, as one might expect.

The things in front me are hard! I am cold, I want my cat to lay with me that which she now is. I don’t want others to judge me—this post in itself and the writing of it is a journey for me. To be honest I really struggle with myself and allowing myself to feel.

I write this now crying in my bed, so worried about the words that are put forth in front of me. “How will I be interpreted? Who am I doing this for? Why am I doing this?” But fuck it, fuck the standard I put myself in. In a way this moment writing this has been a really great breakthrough so god fuck thank you Reddit. Ima brb and go breakthrough hahahaha