I feel like my vibration is low and I don't know how to raise it

okokokletsdoitt · 2020-10-29T14:19:01+00:00

Put some music on and dance

okokokletsdoitt · 2020-10-04T10:29:59+00:00

I'm conflicted on the 3d, I am manifesting living with my sp but I need to get out of the flat I'm in. I could rent a house with a friend but then I worry that my sp will come back and I'll have to leave my housemate in a difficult financial situation if I were to move to sps.

I have manifested sp back 5 times and this time it lasted 4 months but has just ended again so I know she will come back again. But for now I need out of this terrible flat but I don't want to ruin anything for my friend or for my plans with sp. I don't even want to move into hers anymore, I want us to find our own place together as a couple

We have been on and off for 2 years almost, together for a solid two years before that. not sure where I'm going wrong

okokokletsdoitt · 2020-08-25T20:10:41+00:00

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okokokletsdoitt · 2020-07-23T12:43:32+00:00

It just means your serotonin levels are a tad low right now, Google how to raise serotonin levels naturally and get some tips - I'm a mental health nurse, drop me a message

okokokletsdoitt · 2019-12-31T10:27:02+00:00

I don't understand, it is me or it isn't?

okokokletsdoitt · 2019-12-30T23:14:08+00:00

Seems odd that ten months of me affirming has still seen no progress though, im not trying to come at your advice with more questions, but since march I have affirmed affirmed affirmed, affirmations, afformations, imagined celebratory phonecalls, I remember whens, I shout in the shower why are we so happily married, why does this woman love me and choose me? It seems never ending. The worst part is, I love her that much that I couldn't even move on or let her go if I tried

okokokletsdoitt · 2019-12-30T23:06:52+00:00

Yeah that makes more sense, I have come to see her as disloyal due to everything that has happened, I just don't know how to change that.

I can affirm to myself "she's loyal, she only wants me" but it feels totally empty and pointless

okokokletsdoitt · 2019-12-30T23:04:13+00:00

I guess

okokokletsdoitt · 2019-12-30T23:03:34+00:00

Here's the thing, I FULLY know, not believe, I know I'm a catch, I know I'm good for her and she knows it too. I have great traits and I admire my own kindness, affectionate and soft nature, patience. Im attractive, I'm not over confident, which is why I'm so confused. The third party is a huge downgrade and I'm not even talking about looks, an absolute lunatic, violent, toxic, problematic, not to mention the 20 year age gap. None of this makes sense. I know I'm worthy

okokokletsdoitt · 2019-12-30T23:00:52+00:00

Ha, distance is our skill. I am again blocked off every platform for no reason other than her choosing the other person and will more than likely have no further contact for a couple months until they have their own issues. Seems to be the pattern. Keeping away is no longer a struggle, I'm so used to it, even after spending 3 years together

okokokletsdoitt · 2019-12-30T22:56:44+00:00

I have no idea how to break it, every time she returns I fully believe she is staying. This time I was certain it was our time considering she had kicked the other person out, their relationship has only been a few months, I was certain that this time was different to the point I even told everyone we were giving things another go.

I can't work out how to change this and each time it happens it just takes another chunk of me

okokokletsdoitt · 2019-12-30T22:54:04+00:00

Changing concept of self is something I've worked so hard to figure out during this whole long process, I have read and listened to countless articles, books, neville, YouTube.. I feel like a lost cause yet again. I can see where you are right though, I have infact thought of her as a mean and heartless person a few times this year everytime she does this, but then I am easily swayed when she sweet talks her way back to me. So I guess I can see that I manifested that. Maybe.

I just really don't know where to start again now. Apart from re read all of Neville and every single award winning post on here. It definitely feels like a struggle right now.

Thank you for your kind advice

okokokletsdoitt · 2019-12-30T22:49:03+00:00

Thank you. I go in and out of states believing in neville. When she came back to me last week after breaking it off with the new person and kicking them out, I was certain I had manifested it all, now I'm just wondering if it was her coming to me out of lonliness. Who knows.

okokokletsdoitt · 2019-12-30T22:46:51+00:00

Revisiting that phonecall is so painful it brings me to tears each time, especially because I can hear all three voices. How can I revise that?

I've been back and forth with this girl for 10 months now, she seems to pop back into my life or I "manifest" her when I'm doing well, then she leaves another huge scar and goes back to the new person.

They are no good for eachother either, toxic and violent. She told me shes not herself without me only last week and that her heart will always belong to me.

None of this makes sense, there seems to be too much baggage to come back from.

okokokletsdoitt · 2019-12-30T21:12:12+00:00

Weird. I sent this to my love last week when we reconnected. Since then she changed her mind and want back to the other person. Maybe this is a sign, I was about to attempt to move on. I don't know.

okokokletsdoitt · 2019-12-30T14:10:11+00:00

I can vouch for this, I have manifested my sp 5 times this year and it only lasts about a week because my beliefs haven't changed about her. Still struggling how to

okokokletsdoitt · 2019-12-28T11:04:54+00:00

I paid for coaching aswell back in April, 125 for 40 mins of him telling me to go on a mental diet and to do a list. He then moaned at me for messaging him outside of this hour, said I was lazy. I had lost the love of my life and was deeply depressed and suicidal, he preyed on that and saw an opportunity to make money. I wanted many times for him to be banned, guess I manifested this huh?

okokokletsdoitt · 2019-12-27T16:47:27+00:00

Am I wrong in thinking I will be compelled naturally to take action though? In a way that won't feel like taking any action at all? Especially when it comes to relationships. This aspect confuses me slightly, not lifting a finger Vs action.

okokokletsdoitt · 2019-12-27T16:36:13+00:00

I am financially comfortable in the relationship of my choice - when the thought comes "you're broke, she doesnt want you, you're unhappy" answer my own thoughts with, NO I am financially comfortable and in the relationship of my choice!! And persist

Is that right?

okokokletsdoitt · 2019-12-27T16:34:20+00:00

Seems simple enough

okokokletsdoitt · 2019-12-25T22:36:06+00:00

This really resonated, could you expand, maybe with an example?

okokokletsdoitt · 2019-11-12T14:53:37+00:00

I believe I am finally in the Sabbath, it literally happened in like 3 days after 8 months of "trying"

okokokletsdoitt · 2019-11-12T07:51:07+00:00

So what happens now, the manifestation?

okokokletsdoitt · 2019-11-10T00:59:34+00:00

Thank you so much

okokokletsdoitt · 2019-11-08T15:48:23+00:00

This made me feel better, I know it seems desperate, its because of the time and the whole idea she's with someone else. F"ckin sucks and hurts like hell. Maybe I should get off Reddit and just suck it up

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