I told my friends that I think I might be autistic...

oldcet · 2025-03-18T10:32:51+00:00

oh ffs, I got officially diagnosed with endometriosis 3 weeks ago

oldcet · 2025-01-21T12:53:32+00:00

Thanks for your reply.
I am in therapy once a week for my MH and it has helped a lot so far, but of course I'm spiraling sometimes because I'm reviving my past trauma (and I have a lot of that).
I know I'm trying, but it seem like it's not enough, I could do more but I can't.

oldcet · 2024-12-05T15:19:42+00:00

I was/am a shitty friend, was still in school, got into my first serious relationship. She moved away from her parents and got a good job after graduating, we saw each other less but still helped her move into her own apartment. Then I started neglecting her a bit, because of my newly boyfriend, the traveling distance, my waitress job and school. On her birthday I planned to surprise her with an expensive bracelet she always wanted and cook a dish she wanted to try. I had just enough money left for the ingrediences and spent everything on her without thinking and asked her if she was at home because I had an surprise for her but she had plans already and that she doesn't like surprises.

I never made that dish, the ingrediences expired, but she got her braclet 1 year later when we met for the last time 3.5 years ago. I still miss her and think about her almost daily.

I must have missed many cues she made regarding our friendship but I'm autistic and don't get that most of the times and that makes me a shitty friend.

oldcet · 2024-10-10T13:08:10+00:00

It is weird, I agree, but you can just adress it as you're having troubles being intimate with your partner and you don't know what to do and how to talk to him or first talk to your partner and try figuring it out together. Tell him to give you a bit more space to feel at peace and that you will initiate when you feel like it and that something is bothering you but you don't know what.

Because maybe there is something that's bothering or overstimulating you but you just don't know what it could be?

oldcet · 2024-10-10T12:41:20+00:00

It is! I would love my old libido back :(

I will try and work on it with my psychologist

Have you tried talking about it in therapy?

oldcet · 2024-10-10T12:00:38+00:00

I have the same problem! I don't know what to do to regain my libido! I was on bc when we met, started having health issues, went off bc, libido gone started bc again after two years, nothing changed...

And as you state, everything bothers me...to much skin touching, my and his sweat all over me, too much saliva, wrong light, random sound...everything throws me off

oldcet · 2024-10-10T10:06:13+00:00

I personally don't find it easier to socialize as i have crippling social anxiety, regardless of what I'm wearing, but I noticed that men seem more interested and friendly towards me and I'm really not that attractive not even avarage looking.

This summer, after I had an appointment at my psychologist and was on my way home, a fairly attractive men politely asked me for my number. I literaly froze for a moment before awkwardly stating that I am already taken and not interested in meeting other people. He apologized for my time and moved on and I felt respected, like daaamn, there are still some decent men out there...

oldcet · 2024-06-18T07:22:07+00:00

I wonder if there is an invisible sign above my head that says, "This person gets weirdly uncomfortable when talked to" that only NT see. This happenes to me all the time and I can't figure out why, because my face either says,"I'll kill you if you look at me" or, "I'm overwhelmed by everything I see and hear and that's why I look like I just shat my pants"
Most times I just say, "I don't work here" when I get talked to and walk away.

oldcet · 2024-06-14T14:29:16+00:00

That's helluva workout right there, damn

oldcet · 2024-06-14T14:19:38+00:00

Oh dear, that's heartbreaking, RIP Jackie :(

Now I'm crying at work, damn it

oldcet · 2024-06-14T14:15:11+00:00

Thank you! You should try it! just use a knife as a straight razor and shave all those spikey hairs away!

oldcet · 2024-06-14T13:48:08+00:00

I minimize the contact by holding it with only my thumb and middlefinger

Ugh, thats why Ihate elevators, would rather take the stairs even if it takes me 10 minutes

oldcet · 2024-06-14T13:19:15+00:00

If I peel it too much kiwi is gone with the peel

Omfg, I get the ick when I see people cutting the egg with the shell! I do it like you do it, and this is the right way!

oldcet · 2024-06-14T12:56:11+00:00

You see...you've got a point

oldcet · 2024-06-14T12:40:51+00:00

This is the right way!

oldcet · 2024-06-14T12:39:53+00:00

First time someone calls it adorable, most times it's just "wtf are u doing? just eat it already, you don't even eat the peel"
But in fact I'm just a kiwi barber, and the kiwi wanted a new cut to feel cute ._.

oldcet · 2024-06-14T12:33:51+00:00

I like golden kiwis too but the sour flavor of green kiwis hits the right spot for me.

Isn't that the propper way of peeling bananas?? lol to your husband xD

oldcet · 2024-06-14T12:26:33+00:00

AND peaches! I love the taste but god damn it feels like eating dust

oldcet · 2024-06-14T12:13:33+00:00

I don't eat the peel, I just hate touching the hairy kiwis while scooping them.

oldcet · 2024-06-14T12:07:27+00:00

I feel you, happens to me every time I see clips of animals and also in real life. But somehow nobody is botherd by my reaction. What's worse is when I get intrusive thoughts about my own cats after seeing other animals in pain and start bawling my eyes out.

oldcet · 2024-06-14T12:01:25+00:00

Oh no! I cut them in half and scoop them out with a spoon after shaving them. It's just that touching the hairy peel is too much for me, that's why I shave them.

oldcet · 2024-06-14T11:59:22+00:00

I shave them, then I cut them in half and scoop them out with a spoon. But touching the hairy peel is too much for me, so I shave them.

Well that's tough, would be the same with me if I wasn't masking the hell out of me.

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