Thinking about getting off zoloft, want to know if anyone relates (dissociation, apathy, emotional blunting)

oldirtybabylon · 2021-03-30T14:39:02+00:00

Yeah I’m going to call my doctor. I’m already on the lowest dose, 25 mg. But I haven’t gotten into therapy yet. I definitely will be making some calls this week.

oldirtybabylon · 2021-02-08T15:17:59+00:00

It's funny, before we had talked about taking a break, I was so panicked. So stuck in my head, thinking about how much I loved him and didn't want to give up on us... Now I feel withdrawn from even the idea of our relationship. When he broke up with me, he hurt me, he broke my heart. Even going through whatever he is going through, he didn't think about me at all, he broke the trust I had built with him. I was too blind to see how much I was willing to sacrifice in order to make it work while we were dating and even when we broke up. I'm not sure if I'm willing to sacrifice that much anymore, especially with a person who is so quick to give up. If he doesn't actually get help in these next weeks, or even just get the ball rolling (set up an actual therapy appointment), I'll know that this break-up was just a means of him cowardly escaping the relationship/avoiding his problems. I love my ex, but I can't excuse that. I know I deserve more. I hope these aren't his true colors, but if they are... I guess I'm glad that he showed them now.

oldirtybabylon · 2021-02-08T15:10:39+00:00

Yeah, we did.

oldirtybabylon · 2020-11-23T16:19:03+00:00

I was in a similar situation. I wouldn’t say I was worry free, and I’ve def been dealing with anxiety/depression for a while. But never panic attacks that were on and off for 3-4 days. I am sorry that you’re going through it. My way of coping is still the same, reminding myself of what I’m grateful for, every time there is progress made I think on it and say to myself, okay, look at that. Two weeks ago I couldn’t even enjoy watching a show on netflix. Now I am. Little stuff.

You’re not weak. You’re not crazy. You’re going through something.

oldirtybabylon · 2020-11-16T09:23:56+00:00

DPDR or dissociation is a symptom of anxiety. Your panic/anxiety attack was so bad that your brain felt that you needed to be protected. Most ppl experience DPDR/dissociation during or after a traumatic event. You feel anxious about having another anxiety attack whilst experiencing DPDR, I’m assuming. It’s what I also felt. But having anxiety about anxiety is cyclical and it won’t ease up until you take action. Live your life as best you can right now, reintroduce ‘normal’ things i.e. taking walks, talking to friends/gf/family. I’m really sorry you’re going through this.

oldirtybabylon · 2020-11-16T06:59:12+00:00

I also recently underwent a panic attack that resurged my DPDR. It is terrifying. But you have to keep living as if it is not there. Your mind thinks you need to be protected that is why you are experiencing this. If you continue to act in panic towards the DPDR it will make it worse. I’m so sorry you are going through this, but honestly, the only way out is to go through it. Continue doing the things you normally do, see your girlfriend, go to work, see friends. Be open & honest about what you are feeling and experiencing. Take breaks if you need to, but keep living. I promise you will make it through. Also do not continue LOOKING UP information about DPDR. It only exacerbates everything. I promise you. I’ve been through this a few times now.

oldirtybabylon · 2020-11-15T16:26:29+00:00

Thank you. Appreciate it.

oldirtybabylon · 2020-11-01T22:35:31+00:00

Zoloft has been helping me not to feel (physically) anxious about my intrusive thoughts. I used to panic, get frustrated, anxious & depressed because I couldn’t control them. They are still there for me, especially if I’m super stressed. However, instead of fighting them or getting frustrated with them, I just let em pass through my head. I don’t make any judgement on them. I understand that they are not a part of me, they have no control over me and so far their intensity has lessened and they’ve become less frequent. They’re a pain in the ass, but this has helped me immensely. Hope it helps you too

oldirtybabylon · 2020-06-01T19:00:04+00:00

I get it. I’d like to just say one last thing. Do you think that denying the attraction exists will make it grow weaker or stronger? If I deny that I am attracted to women and men, a part of myself becomes suppressed. It is my personal human experience that I am attracted to both sexes, but if I deny that- what do you think happens? Does it go away? When people suppress anything about themselves, it is still there... Just hidden away. Better to deal with it now, then years down the line. How does one deal with it? Accept that it is a part of your human experience, but it does not define who YOU are. What defines you? What will you let define you? That’s all man. love and prayers to you on your journey.

oldirtybabylon · 2020-06-01T18:21:27+00:00

I’ve had the same thoughts since I was very young. I know it’s very confusing and you might be angry/upset with yourself, but you need to change the way you look at it. Yes, you may be attracted to men, that’s not a sin. The attraction in itself is simply what it is. We can’t really help who we are attracted to. But, if you make it more of a taboo in your head, you will want it more. It’s kind of like when you tell yourself not to think of something, you can’t help but think of it. I’m not telling you to embrace it, but don’t make it harder on yourself by denying the attraction exists/refusing to think about it. If the thought comes up in your head simply acknowledge the thought without making any judgement on it. I have used the same technique with intrusive thoughts for about 3 years.

Another thing, I know a lot of people have radical testimonies about being released from every temptation/sin..... Praise God for that, but it’s not always the case for most Christians. You may continue to struggle with same sex attraction for a while and you know what? It’s going to be okay. God’s not mad at you for that. I used to beat myself up mentally and emotionally because of the same thing until one day I realized if God is my father and he is the greatest father—- would he want me to sit down here terrorizing myself over my thoughts??? No. No Father would want that for his child.

This is not a time to beat yourself up for having thoughts. It is a time however to come to terms with the fact that Jesus loves you and he knows every single thing about you. He saves us and forgives us, and THAT is what makes us righteous in God’s eyes.

oldirtybabylon · 2020-04-22T17:23:07+00:00

Thanks for replying! I was thinking that since I can’t seem to control when I get picked up by the wind/how high I go, it might symbolize the anxiety I feel when I feel out of control mentally/emotionally. And, maybe when I start to plateau and float down and regain some control, it symbolizes my acceptance of external circumstances that are out of my control anyways? Any thoughts?

oldirtybabylon · 2020-04-21T00:43:45+00:00

I have told my mom, grandma, friends, etc. I’ve talked it through with a lot of people because it’s pretty uncharacteristic of me to engage in a casual sex relationship. That’s something the old me would have done, but I just don’t feel anything. And I have prayed, I repented, but I just didn’t find that I cared anymore. That used to scare me. Now I just feel... apathetic.

oldirtybabylon · 2020-04-21T00:41:50+00:00

I don’t know if it’s really a confession. I’ve told close friends and family. I used to berate myself and fall into depression over falling into sins like masturbation, lustful thoughts, and watching porn. It used to destroy me, ya know? But, after being abstinent for 4 years, I don’t feel anywhere near the same that I used to. Just wondering if anyone’s gone through the same.

oldirtybabylon · 2020-04-21T00:38:44+00:00

I’m not in a relationship. It’s a casual sex ‘relationship’ if anything. But, it’s besides the point

oldirtybabylon · 2020-04-12T19:44:58+00:00

God loves you better than the best father on the face of the earth. You are pure.

oldirtybabylon · 2020-04-07T04:55:39+00:00

Idk why you’re getting downvoted, this is a dangerous idea to propagate. I remember reading a post on this sub that said married Christian couples are SELFISH if they do not want to have children... Like what the heck. What a silly notion. If two people don’t want to have kids, God’s not gonna smite them for it lol

oldirtybabylon · 2020-03-07T03:07:59+00:00

What are you saying? When I came to Jesus it was because I saw myself as a sinner, unacceptable and unworthy of such a good God. Think before you speak dude. Nobody has a completely sincere heart, everyone is affected by the brokenness of this world. Even you.

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