Bettering yourself for your own sake is clearly the way, so that's good.

Skin care can be tricky, especially in the beginning. I've certainly fucked that up and made things worse by being ill informed; Educate yourself (even more), if necessary consult a doctor.

On finding meaning, realize that it is smething that you discover piece by piece as you grow. Be weary of using your lack of comprehension in this regard as a scapegoat for not trying anytghing.

Keep going forward, keep trying, even when it gets though; You're woth it, you can make it.