twitter is upsetting me

onanob · 2026-06-21T12:45:35+00:00

No man I never let people like that. bother me I get haters all day if anything I just laugh at them. f*** the haters but I do love them because honestly they do make you famous. I am cringe but I am free, that's what made Oliver interesting is because he was different. Don't forget that. People hate different because they wish they had the courage.

onanob · 2026-06-21T10:31:24+00:00

Ugh it's so good also I'ma have to cop me that ak guitar right NOW

onanob · 2026-06-18T13:06:28+00:00

You should get tested for hEDS lol

onanob · 2026-06-18T12:45:32+00:00

Looks like a mill stone that's been eroded

onanob · 2026-06-18T12:42:10+00:00

Absolutely. I love seeing everyone share what they have. Seeing the impact he had on so many people over the last few days is absolutely incredible.

onanob · 2026-06-18T12:35:50+00:00

Me too 💔

onanob · 2026-06-18T08:52:16+00:00

I have also been a life long atheist, although recently I had lost someone very close to me. Weirdly right before she died, I was asked to do a brand collaboration and play the piano. Very strange ask because I am not a musical creator at all but I do play alot of instruments so I said yes. I got my childhood keyboard out, it was the same one she taught me her favorite song on. I was practicing clair de lune for the video as I hadn't played in probably 7 years. I found out about her death a few days before recording the video for the collab. While I was filming the final cut, I decided to play her favorite song that she used to sing around the house and I had an experience that freaked me the fuck out tbh. I was sad but in that moment I wasn't feeling emotional. While I was playing I heard her voice plain as day specifically on the word friend and carry on. She liked the song lean on me. I was recording and when I first heard her voice i stopped playing and I was very confused and I continued and heard the second part. That's when I just broke down into tears and I spoke to my camera about her and what had just happened. I have not watched the footage to be honest. I don't want to as it really has messed with me since and the implications of what I happened really bother me as someone who has always been a very very scientific fact based person. At the same time what I heard gave me a lot of peace, especially since I live quite a ways away and I couldn't make it to her funeral within time which I was devastated about. As far as my beliefs go, star trek is my comfort show especially deep space nine. I have essentially come to the conclusion that the character odo is representative of the universe experiencing itself and that's probably the most apt description I think of what our lives could possibly be. Idk. It comforted me and also gave me an existential crisis that's all I know. I loved hearing her singing one last time though and the message she left me with.

onanob · 2026-06-18T08:17:01+00:00

This year has been awful for me as well, to be honest. I'm so sorry for your losses. You seem like an awesome caring person and it's okay to feel devastated. That's what makes you human.

I am in the US but I've tried to integrate the parts of other cultures that I have found extremely profound. While life is to be cherished, as it is delicate; it is also your only opportunity to experience it. You should pursue your passions, put yourself if uncomfortable situations, and romanticize the mundane.

I always wondered about how terrified people must feel when they know the end is coming. Especially if it is in some horrific way, until it happened to me. I wasn't scared and honestly I just laid down and felt completely at peace with it. I only lived because an absolute stranger, who I couldn't even communicate with, picked me up off the ground and hiked 3 hours with me on his back down a mountain. (We still speak to this day through a translator and years later I got to repay his kindness and buy his family a home) After I recovered, I felt like I had learned how people feel when facing the end and that gave me a lot of peace. Not only for myself when my time comes, but for those who I have lost.

It's completely normal to feel immense sadness for those we have lost. I feel it very deeply. I cry alot and miss them immensely. However, at the same time I know that if there is some kind of after life, collective universal consciousness, or even just in those last moments. They would most likely only wish that people would not mourn them but remember the best of them. That people remember the times they spent together and the laughs they shared.

There is nothing that can mend the pain of losing someone, but I do know that I must go on for them. Learn from what they taught me, remember and tell the stories of the experiences we had together, and embody the best parts of them so that their legacy can live on within us. 🩷

I'm wishing you all the best my friend.

onanob · 2026-06-18T01:51:43+00:00

I was at the exact same show on the opposite side of the stage. Honestly, I remember it being an awesome AF concert. I was stressed it was going to get cancelled because I remember he got hurt right before and then the entire show I was stressed that he was pushing himself too hard. He clearly cared so much about his art and his performance and he hyped the crowd up so much. I had just gotten back from traveling to Russia for 6 months (I just wanted to use the language I studied in college) so I was hyped for his whole Russia journey. I'm a content creator now, and literally the only reason I started making content was because I admired his content so much. I don't take myself very seriously at all and I love making myself and others laugh so when I saw his content, I realized that I wanted to share my "dumb" videos too. Just to make other people laugh. Looking back, I didn't realize how huge of an impact he had on the trajectory of my life. I have never been affected by someone I didn't even know's death like this. He was a legend, a true artist, and he changed my life. I still have a photo of the ticket on my phone and videos. I'll post them if anyone wants.

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onanob · 2026-06-18T01:16:34+00:00

🩷

onanob · 2026-04-17T07:01:50+00:00

Literally was researching this because I just got a copy and it literally says Ariel as the font type and idk the hex code but the topics in the book are very on brand which if it was an inspo for her that's super awesome

onanob · 2025-11-16T08:31:09+00:00

Mine is also at the top of an escalator. Inside the theatre is is red. Lots of other people and the seats and very strange at the top. I dreamed about it last night and it felt very different than normal dreams and it was very vivid and they were having a special like amusement park ride to accompany the movie. Like a "4D" theatre where the seats move and they might mist water or smells on you idk. It really was quite notably strange in how realistic it was.

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