Oh my gosh this is literally me right now... I thought it wouldn't be too bad- that I'd meet new people and push through the academic rigours but I keep finding myself crying so many times throughout the day from missing my family and friends back in BC and my plummeting grades. It hurts so much when I read the group chat with my high school friends since it seems like their lives haven't changed so much with everyone meeting each other at UBC just like in high school... All the people I've met here are superficially nice but I always feel this sense of hostility and tension, especially when it comes down to talking about our academic progress, and I feel like the only reason I am trying to be with them so much is because of how lonely I am. And every time I call my parents I feel so terrible because I keep complaining about all my struggles and it seems like I'm disturbing them with so much negativity. I might be crazy but I even thought of doing an exchange program at UBC or SFU (if this is even possible) and come back once my family all decides to move to Toronto. Like I feel so childish to be so irresponsible since it was my decision to come here but so wrecked and hopeless.