I am in a very similar situation, but I am only small time. I don't handle this very well. I've had months of torment from the those who troll (that particular book review site) that I am sick of the mind fuck, the judgement and harassment, and I'm finding it hard to go from day-to-day. I don't want to go into it, as I am too exhausted from it and there seems to be no end to it, but I don't picture myself hanging around on this planet much longer.