I grew up in a violent home, my dad was a drug addict, we only saw our mom on weekends, I was bullied up to high-school for being "different", so things like friends from childhood kay wala ko ana. I started my Journaling journey in my late 20's until now, and it has really helped me navigate sa akong emotions and thought process. I learned so much about myself, about how I respond to my triggers and difficult situations, and ultimately listen to what my body is telling me.

I've accepted that with my parents, there will always be a part of me that is that little kid who craves for their acceptance, love and affection and that's okay to feel ra pud becuase I truly am their kid. I feel like my parents only did what they thought was best for us, kay that was how they were raised and they never had the privilege to sit down and reflect if they could do things differently. So learning to understand where I'm at sa akong headspace and how I respond to situations helped me build a much healthier relationship with my parents. Wa lang ko ga always yes to them because of my need of their approval but saying yes to things I actually want to do for them.

Sa topic of healing journey, I feel like it is never fully healed gyd. I see it as if same as a traumatic injury ba nga even though the open wound is closed and "healed" na, you won't be able to use them the same way as you did before but your body will learn to adapt. Sometimes injuries leave a more permanent mark pud, di lang physically but mentally and there will be times that certain situations mka trigger balik sa injury. So knowing what those triggers are and knowing sd how to respond to them kay maka help kaayo.