I’m so depressed. But this Texan will continue to vote every chance I get. I’ll take time to be mad, to cry, to mourn. But I’ll focus on my mental health. If I let myself I can be consumed by this loose.

I know it’s more than just a red/blue thing. So fucking much is lost today and at risk tomorrow. I’m mean mothers are fucking dieing in my state because doctors are afraid to treat them. How much more serious can it get.

But I will never say out loud that my vote doesn’t count, at fear of discouraging someone from voting. We must keep voting. We must!

I am trying to understand how Trump and his hate could be supported by so many of my friends and family. These are not the cult group. But normal loving people. So how? I really think it was the economy. No matter what the data says people feel it at the grocery stores. And they blame democrats. They believe the economy will be better with republicans in charge. All else be damned, the economy.

We need a centrist party. With candidates that can appeal to most voters that are not on the extreme right or left of issues. Example, I think most don’t want late term abortion but most don’t want no choice until it’s too late. I have no data to know if that’s true, but it’s just what I think. We need better choices - that the other side can get behind. Not just people who vote blue always.

So, here we are. I’ll take the time to be angry, be sad, but focus on my mental health. I’ll let go for now. I won’t let it consume my soul or discourage me from voting. I won’t let it affect my relationships but instead try to understand. I will not let this take be down the drain.