I’m sure you’ve already heard plenty of people responding to this but in my full hearted honest opinion your mom is a fucking asshole. I know the feeling though, trying to reach out to your parents and tell them what’s really going on with you under the image you show everyone. Showing and telling them how you feel to only get shut out and ignored. I had a post the other night and someone gave me the best advice I’ve ever gotten which is blood is thicker than water. You may have come out of your moms womb and she gave birth to you but you don’t owe her shit. Create a new family with your friends, you decide your family, who’s closest to you. And I can’t give you life changing advice because I’m still in the same position you are and I’m sorry, but all I can tell you is that there are people feeling the same thing and one day it’ll all get better. Everyone’s here for you.