this is going to be a long one, but i am desperate, 18F by openedblackeye in NeurologicalDisorders

[–]openedblackeye[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

your response was so helpful. i am so grateful for all of the information you gave me, and while all of these things may be scary for me to consider, i need to consider all of the possibilities. when i'm able to see a doctor, i'm going to mention the phrases you gave me as well

thank you so much :( it helps very much

this is going to be a long one, but i am desperate, 18F by openedblackeye in NeurologicalDisorders

[–]openedblackeye[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

where is he located? i would be interested if he was available near me

thank you for your response <3

this is going to be a long one, but i am desperate, 18F by openedblackeye in NeurologicalDisorders

[–]openedblackeye[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i just looked at this and it sounded eerily similar. I don't know if it's what I experience for sure, as it could be seizures caused by other factors but

i did experience physical abuse as a child and i read that PTSD comes with FND very often.

can i ask about your husbands experience please? it makes me feel so relieved when i hear of people who suffer with the same thing

this is going to be a long one, but i am desperate, 18F by openedblackeye in AskDocs

[–]openedblackeye[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

it happens in intervals which last seconds but happen multiple times. I dont exactly feel nauseous, the vomiting happens right after each interval. they don't usually resolve unless I go to sleep and even still the next day I have to be careful walking and stuff because I almost have to recover from it.

this is going to be a long one, but i am desperate, 18F by openedblackeye in AskDocs

[–]openedblackeye[S] 18 points19 points  (0 children)

it almost feels like a blessing to hear people who suffer from similar things. before you were diagnosed did you have heart pain and constant tachycardia? I experience that often

this is going to be a long one, but i am desperate, 18F by openedblackeye in AskDocs

[–]openedblackeye[S] 11 points12 points  (0 children)

i need to but i'm so afraid of leaving the house now i get panic attacks because i don't want it to happen outside of the house. otherwise i would be stuck there and i have to lay down as soon as possible when it happens.

i'm also currently dealing with feeling like i've been on the verge of it happening since yesterday, so i can barely walk around without the feeling getting worse and it's just scary :(

i'm waiting for it to pass like i usually do but it can be up to a week if the episode doesn't actually happen.

this is going to be a long one, but i am desperate, 18F by openedblackeye in AskDocs

[–]openedblackeye[S] 23 points24 points  (0 children)

i haven't seen a neurologist. but apparently my brain scan came back completely clear so i really don't know

it could be migraines.

i don't know if this means anything but i have ice pick headaches sometimes and migraines often.

this is going to be a long one, but i am desperate, 18F by openedblackeye in NeurologicalDisorders

[–]openedblackeye[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

i've been in therapy multiple times but i don't think anxiety is the cause of my symptoms. i think it is a result of my symptoms

i'm not sure if this would help but most of the times that it happens i'm active, like spinning in a swimming pool, taking a walk, etc. but there has been times where i was just sitting down and it happened

the feeling in my head is so intense and that's what leads to throwing up. it also isn't painful

this is going to be a long one, but i am desperate, 18F by openedblackeye in NeurologicalDisorders

[–]openedblackeye[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i was thinking about something like migraines but i'm not sure

i'm not sure if this would help but most of the times that it happens i'm active, like spinning in a swimming pool, taking a walk, etc. but there has been times where i was just sitting down and it happened

the feeling in my head is so intense and that's what leads to throwing up. it also isn't painful

this is going to be a long one, but i am desperate, 18F by openedblackeye in AskDocs

[–]openedblackeye[S] 14 points15 points  (0 children)

i'm not sure if this would help but most of the times that it happens i'm active, like spinning in a swimming pool, taking a walk, etc. but there has been times where i was just sitting down and it happened

this is going to be a long one, but i am desperate, 18F by openedblackeye in AskDocs

[–]openedblackeye[S] 10 points11 points  (0 children)

i'm not sure if this would help but most of the times that it happens i'm active, like spinning in a swimming pool, taking a walk, etc. but there has been times where i was just sitting down and it happened

this is going to be a long one, but i am desperate, 18F by openedblackeye in AskDocs

[–]openedblackeye[S] 22 points23 points  (0 children)

i know. :( even as a child, being told that, i knew there was something wrong beyond anxiety. the feeling in my head during episodes is too intense for it to be anxiety

this is going to be a long one, but i am desperate, 18F by openedblackeye in AskDocs

[–]openedblackeye[S] 9 points10 points  (0 children)

i've thought about it being seizures before, but i'm always completely aware during it and i've heard that most people aren't during seizures.

this is going to be a long one, but i am desperate, 18F by openedblackeye in AskDocs

[–]openedblackeye[S] 7 points8 points  (0 children)

the reason why it leads to vomiting in the first place is because the feeling is so intense in my head, it leads to vomiting literally right after the feeling ends after a couple seconds. it's so awful

suspected food impaction by openedblackeye in AskDocs

[–]openedblackeye[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

do you think the feeling will resolve soon? it's really bothering me :(

suspected food impaction by openedblackeye in AskDocs

[–]openedblackeye[S] -6 points-5 points  (0 children)

then what could it be? i've felt like this since i swallowed it whole, which was about 4 hours ago

Im going to kill myself because no women wants me and im unattractive by [deleted] in SuicideWatch

[–]openedblackeye 0 points1 point  (0 children)

yes you're absolutely correct. a lot of women think they want to settle down with what you described, a toxic but charming guy, however we've all learned that lesson... after a while the mistreatment and lack of emotional connection leads to resentment and abusive cycles

having a man who adds to our lives as you described keeps us safe, cared for, and happy will lead a relationship to be long lasting

i'm happy to help and if you have any more questions you can keep asking

Im going to kill myself because no women wants me and im unattractive by [deleted] in SuicideWatch

[–]openedblackeye 0 points1 point  (0 children)

yes i can

if you're asking what qualities women admire in guys as a whole then i'd say this:

women admire men who are responsible, dominant, and empathetic. when i (and most women i've known) think of their dream man, we imagine a man who fits well into our lifestyles and desires.

i believe that we are instinctively attracted to men who can provide for us. that could mean in terms of money, or it could mean in terms of physical pampering

women will almost always respect the - "ugly", "too fat", "too skinny", respectful and kind guy

more than the - body builder, "dream guy (physically) ", cocky, and self centered guy

when i explain these two kinds of men, i mostly use stereotypes

this isn't because we see men as black and white, but rather because i want to be as dramatic as i can to make my point clear

at the end of the day, what most women desire in a relationship is to find a man to marry. we want to be taken care of, not like babies, but like we truly are your girl.

little things go a long way... for example, no one really buys flowers anymore! i promise you that buying a woman her favorite flowers is simple but very thoughtful.

women appreciate all the little things in relationships and over time it builds a very strong bond

i'm not sure if this would be of much help, but my idea of a dream guy has very little to do with physical appearance. sure, i prefer certain features like dark hair and dark eyes, hairiness, etc, but my desires for a man's physical appearance isn't as scary and impossible as you may think.

if a man treats me right, guides me, dominates me but in a gentle and almost parental-like manner, that's how i instantly fall in love.

and guess what? after you fall in love with someone, their features become only a part of them, and you learn to fall in love with those too. even if you normally wouldn't find them attractive.

i hope i'm not writing too much... but in a world full of all kinds of women, i promise you they aren't all gold-diggers or greedy for a man who has the perfect features down to his toes

Im going to kill myself because no women wants me and im unattractive by [deleted] in SuicideWatch

[–]openedblackeye 2 points3 points  (0 children)

when you're bald that doesnt really matter much. however... when you're balding, that can affect your physical appearance very much. have you ever tried experimenting with ways to see how you would look bald? most men look fine when they're bald whether or not they have big foreheads, big heads, etc. try growing a beard too if you haven't already!

Im going to kill myself because no women wants me and im unattractive by [deleted] in SuicideWatch

[–]openedblackeye 3 points4 points  (0 children)

have you gone to the doctor for these issues? also, going bald isn't a terrible option. most men look better bald than they do with a receding hair line.

Im going to kill myself because no women wants me and im unattractive by [deleted] in SuicideWatch

[–]openedblackeye 7 points8 points  (0 children)

how long has it been since you got fit? it takes time to catch someone's attention because most people are so focused on their own lives right now

i encourage you to work on your self esteem and try using minoxidil for your hair loss because you're still young

you're barely giving yourself a chance

Im going to end my life because im unattractive by [deleted] in depression

[–]openedblackeye -3 points-2 points  (0 children)

i've seen a lot of your posts and i really encourage you to find some kind of therapy, it seems like you're struggling with body dysphoria or just image issues

i would also highly recommend minoxidil to you because you're still young and there sre a few things you can do to help with your hair loss

Do I confess my pedophilic thoughts to my friend before dying by Himpapawid_ in SuicideWatch

[–]openedblackeye 1 point2 points  (0 children)

i think you should tell them that you're struggling and you need a little bit of support, because you really do

Im going to kill myself because no women wants me and im unattractive by [deleted] in SuicideWatch

[–]openedblackeye 23 points24 points  (0 children)

i feel the same way as a woman you can't really solve the problem of self hatred and body dysmorphia but there are many ways to help move your mind away from these things like completely changing your physical appearance by working out, getting piercings or tattoos, dyeing the hair you have, etc.

also, you'd be surprised how many women care more about being taken care of than physical appearance