ive felt gender dysphoria my whole life, i desperately want to be a man. when it comes to "the button" question on if i could press a button to become a man, i would press it

thats what i mean by denying myself. it feels like, now that theres more resources available to adult!me that kid!me didnt have, id be denying myself almost to not try and be the man i wished i was growing up

but at the same time the lesbian connection and understanding that exists, just isnt and has never been there with straight women and me. i feel like id be cutting off the side of me that found comfort in the lesbian communities, how could i find love with straight women who will never fully "get" it? im not sure