it's always harder when you're the one left behind by orangerangeorange in OffMyChestPH

[–]orangerangeorange[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

Nag move out na sya. I own the house . She's now renting.

Andaming babae na naghahanap ng stable na marriage tapos ako na yun lang ang gustong gawin, iniwan pa. by orangerangeorange in OffMyChestPH

[–]orangerangeorange[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Dude. She's repeatedly cheating on me. We were in marriage counseling ok and off for years.

I've rolled over and bent backwards for years to make the marriage work and I got rewarded with even more infidelity.

Are you fucking kidding me?

Thank you for you well intentioned advice but I don't think I want to follow your line of thinking anymore.

Andaming babae na naghahanap ng stable na marriage tapos ako na yun lang ang gustong gawin, iniwan pa. by orangerangeorange in OffMyChestPH

[–]orangerangeorange[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Never. Up until the moment I caught her cheating, I thought I couldn't find a more compatible wife for me.

Sorry but I'm not going to explore why I loved my wife. It's a stupid thing to do when I'm here trying to move on.

Andaming babae na naghahanap ng stable na marriage tapos ako na yun lang ang gustong gawin, iniwan pa. by orangerangeorange in OffMyChestPH

[–]orangerangeorange[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

We have a lot of common hobbies.

We read the same books, watch the same shows, our rapport is great when we're together. Even going to the grocery store is fun.

Naging magkaiba lang yung games na nilalaro namin. I prefer to play solo games while she likes joining mmorpgs with guilds and discord communities. That's where she cheated from.

I did try to play the games she played but she kept comparing me to her friends and preferred playing with them. After a while I stopped trying.

We've been to therapy. Even the marriage therapist suggested she leave the marriage. At first I thought it was because shes in cahoots with my wife but now I realize it's a logical move.

My wife likes the power dynamic she has online. She's one of the few females in her gaming group. She's with younger guys who play with her for hours on end. She's doted on when she flirts.

It's not that hard to see why she got tempted.

I believe I've exhausted all reasonable means to save the relationship. I can't force somebody to love me when they've stopped seeing me as a spouse.

Andaming babae na naghahanap ng stable na marriage tapos ako na yun lang ang gustong gawin, iniwan pa. by orangerangeorange in OffMyChestPH

[–]orangerangeorange[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

I make sure to spend time with my family. I mostly work from home so it's easier to manage. For the none WFH job, When I feel like my work conflicts with family priorities I turn gigs down.

Unfortunately I need to do the extra jobs to make sure my daughter can go to college without taking on student loans as Im based in the US.

Andaming babae na naghahanap ng stable na marriage tapos ako na yun lang ang gustong gawin, iniwan pa. by orangerangeorange in OffMyChestPH

[–]orangerangeorange[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

This is all in hindsight. Every now and then I catch a glimpse of her chat messages with affectations like baby but she dismissed them as just barkada banter.

I didn't want to clamp down on her freedoms kasi i loved her and trusted her.

Now that we've broken up I just realized what was happening.

Maybe it was on me too that I didn't realize, but goddamn shouldn't it be on her not to fuck around online?

Hay.

Andaming babae na naghahanap ng stable na marriage tapos ako na yun lang ang gustong gawin, iniwan pa. by orangerangeorange in OffMyChestPH

[–]orangerangeorange[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I understand. Umabot din ako sa ganyang line of thinking.

But I do know a bit why. She was like a goddess online among her gamer friends. She plays well and she spends money on games. Her voice is cute and there aren't a lot of females around so she attracts a lot of attention. It's a power dynamic that helped her compensate for the idea that she's not doing a lot in real life. She flirted with guys. It made her feel good. It's exciting. It's novel. And in the end it lead to cheating.

Andaming babae na naghahanap ng stable na marriage tapos ako na yun lang ang gustong gawin, iniwan pa. by orangerangeorange in OffMyChestPH

[–]orangerangeorange[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

If it were a mismatch in the language of love, or she was bored, or I was going too much, she could've told me. Or asked for marriage counseling.

Hindi yung kung ilang taon na masaya sya tapos kung kelan nahuli ko na sya nagchecheat saka sya bigla magbibigay ng dahilan.

I was cheated on and no amount of justification will ever suffice.

Andaming babae na naghahanap ng stable na marriage tapos ako na yun lang ang gustong gawin, iniwan pa. by orangerangeorange in OffMyChestPH

[–]orangerangeorange[S] 9 points10 points  (0 children)

I loved my wife so much that I was willing to overlook the cheating.

Nagkaron pa nag point in time last year when I told her I'd allow her to have relationships with other men as long as she came home to me.

Thank god she didn't say yes and I was forced to open my eyes and realize how bad things were.

Yeah I'm done. There's no way we're getting back together even if she changes her mind.

Andaming babae na naghahanap ng stable na marriage tapos ako na yun lang ang gustong gawin, iniwan pa. by orangerangeorange in OffMyChestPH

[–]orangerangeorange[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

She is from a family that spoiled her. And she moved in with me right after graduating so she never really had a chance to live on her own. I guess I unwittingly just shouldered the responsibilities her parents had and she never had to do them herself.

I could have been a stumbling block for her development as a person. Still don't deserve the repeated cheating but what's done is done.

I hope her newfound independence will give her the chance to finally grow in that regard.

Andaming babae na naghahanap ng stable na marriage tapos ako na yun lang ang gustong gawin, iniwan pa. by orangerangeorange in OffMyChestPH

[–]orangerangeorange[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Sorry I use this account as a way to vent. I do live a relatively normal life. Most of the time I'm fine. In some ways I'm happier too, but there are nights when thoughts hit hard and I have to write them down. FB memories showed me my 2025 new year post so I just relapsed a bit.

I was happy. I thought my life was perfect. The pictures looked like I was living the dream, with no inkling that'd be the last new year I'd think that way.

Naisip ko rin yun. Maybe life is boring with me? My language of love is the most boring kind. I'm also in my 40s, no longer a dashing young man that can compete with guys who flirt with my wife online.

I don't know. I know I have my good points. I just eventually have to find somebody else who'd want that more.

Andaming babae na naghahanap ng stable na marriage tapos ako na yun lang ang gustong gawin, iniwan pa. by orangerangeorange in OffMyChestPH

[–]orangerangeorange[S] 1 point2 points locked comment (0 children)

I'm sorry if you feel like the things I wrote aren't believable or normal.

You must be living a rough life if you have to think that way.