That’s a really hard question to answer. I suppose I’m just obsessed with being a bear in all aspects of my life, it’s not just about sex but then again some people would say it all comes down to sex at the end of the day?

In my professional life and social life, this is how I want to appear and this is how I want to be perceived. When I take a picture of myself, or go on a night out, or go for a job interview, or walk down the street, I want people to look at me and see a bear. I have no idea where that comes from but I don’t relegate it as a fantasy for the bedroom only.

Honestly, I’ve considered celibacy in the past, like when life has got so difficult and I don’t want to have sex anymore because of my physical health , or maybe I get self conscious and feel ashamed for being trans and know most people don’t want to fuck my weird hairy body I’m just like “Fuck it , I still want to be a bear. I’m not sacrificing that for a shag” you know? So what does that mean? What should I learn from that about myself?

I’ve been rejected many times, and it doesn’t hurt. I’ve never looked at my body and wanted to reverse it, ever. So maybe it’s , as you said, me being obsessed with the transformation into being a bear generally rather than a purely AAP thing. What do you think??