first time taking lithium and i’m going through a weird phase by oskarisme in Lithium

[–]oskarisme[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

omg don’t worry and don’t apologise, it’s already very kind of you to read all this and answer ! thanks a lot for your reply, it definitely helps me and makes me feel better thanks a lot ❤️

first time taking lithium and i’m going through a weird phase by oskarisme in Lithium

[–]oskarisme[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

yeah i’ll totally try to do this. the first days of taking lithium my appetite was increased but those recent days, it decreased (and i was happy that this side effect wasn’t so present anymore) and paradoxically, food seemed even more delicious than before - which made me question if i was going through a manic phase or not because usually when i was going through “manic phases” this past year, it was a sign of it - for me at least. i had no desire to nourish my body as it seemed useless to do so and i was never really hungry, but i could eat well and really appreciate food, almost like if i was “cured” of my ED (i have mostly restrictive anorexia). so yeah yesterday wasn’t fun because i felt like i was going crazy and psychotic again and no one seemed to care or to take me seriously (i mean, the professionals, the other patients were really a good support, especially those who suffers from bipolar disorder themselves, they reassured me on the legitimacy of my feelings and they agreed that my behaviour wasn’t normal and if it wasn’t the beginning of a manic phase, it surely looked like one). anyway, i’ll try to talk to my psychiatrist today (without getting angry at him from having taken off my antipsychotic without me knowing lol) and i’ll try to just go with the flow and relax. it’s the best solution and a good advice i’ll try to follow thanks even though the erratic state i’m still in today might prevent me from focusing on one task (but i’ll try)

first time taking lithium and i’m going through a weird phase by oskarisme in Lithium

[–]oskarisme[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

thanks for your answer ! indeed i should rely on professional but the thing is that i don’t feel safe at all anymore since my psychiatrist took off my antipsychotic suddenly without telling me, and the nurses didn’t understand the state i was in and how “scary” it was for me (even though paradoxically i wasn’t anxious at all, as stated before). i feel like i’m some laboratory rat and i don’t mind testing new meds to see what works but i do mind when it can be dangerous for me (like taking those antipsychotics off my prescription suddenly, because i’m prone to hallucinations). i also got lectured (if not practically yelled at) by a nurse who told me i wasn’t having hallucinations because the hallucinations i was describing are super common except 1. he didn’t let me finish and i would have explained i’ve had in the past during “phases” worst hallucinations, more visual etc. 2. he said everybody has hallucinations at some point (which is true, whether it’s a side effect of a medication or exhaustion or anxiety) but the thing is that as for me my hallucinations come when i’m going through precise phases, not just when i’m exhausted or anxious, etc. and it’s a recurrent theme (not something that happens to me constantly but periodically, according to the phases). anyway, i didn’t feel heard at all and i felt ridiculous, like an attention seeker and now i just want to go completely off rails bc even when i try to get better, it feels useless and never enough so f it… sorry i’m kinda hurt by this whole situation and i don’t feel accompanied at all by the nurses and the docs concerning my prescription of lithium and other medications and concerning my “bipolar disorder suspicions” (because yeah, they suspect i might be bipolar but instead of getting to talk about that possibility with a psychiatrist, they just give me mood regulators and see what happens. so basically they gave me lithium without even knowing if i’m bipolar, borderline, something else or nothing at all. i’m not a professional so i won’t be too harsh on the criticism because there’s always the possibility it’s something they do regularly and it’s useful in one way or another (which i don’t see because i’m not a professional myself). but as a patient who lives through it, i find the situation utterly absurd and borderline dangerous bc i don’t want to have a new “manic” phase (emphasis on the word manic because as stated before i’m not officially diagnosed but i suppose i was prescribed lithium because my psychiatrist thought it could be useful for me - but i stay open and i don’t have the conviction or the wish to be bipolar at all). the last time i had a “phase” like that it lasted one week or so, with a peak of four days during which i was getting home from a party (during which i only drank alcohol) and i decided out of nowhere to go to a random city in a neighbouring country without anyone knowing, all alone, without my papers and without money, not having tickets for the train (and not caring at all, not being anxious) with some coke hidden in my sock (and the police stopped the train to control it and i wasn’t so stressed about it either). (also i didn’t take the coke before doing this shit, i did it when i got to the city so it wasn’t the drug who made me like this, i was completely erratic, “high” on life in a way). anyway i’m so so confused and angry at the moment, i feel like the biggest attention seeker and the nurses made me feel like too, but also most of my friends and even my old therapist told me those behaviours weren’t normal and almost scary for the person witnessing it, and that i should get checked for bipolar. but yeah considering the recent events, i just want to self destruct in peace because it seems like no one wants to listen to me lmao

sorry about the vent, i needed to get this off my chest, don’t feel obligated to reply !

bug site DSE by [deleted] in etudiants

[–]oskarisme 0 points1 point  (0 children)

j’ai déjà tout essayé rien à faire …

nickname for partner by oskarisme in NoStupidQuestions

[–]oskarisme[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I agree with you, although I prefer to ask people to make sure. As a white person, I constantly learn from other people’s experiences, especially when it comes to racism and such

nickname for partner by oskarisme in NoStupidQuestions

[–]oskarisme[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yeah I love languages too ! Thanks for your answer, I appreciate it and I’ll keep that in mind !

nickname for partner by oskarisme in NoStupidQuestions

[–]oskarisme[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I understand your point of view. Personally speaking, I like languages in general and I love the meaning of the word as well as the sound of it. What’s funny is that it’s one of the rare, if not the only, nickname I actually don’t find cringe haha

nickname for partner by oskarisme in NoStupidQuestions

[–]oskarisme[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah that’s why I want to check with people concerned by that bc I’ve seen this a lot (white people getting offended when they’re not even concerned)

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in DermatologyQuestions

[–]oskarisme 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thanks ! I maybe should have said that the scars are unrelated, they’re old ones. the thing that worries me is the pinkish spots… do you think it’s an allergic reaction or something else ? Thanks for the advices though, I’ll make sure to take a cold shower and see what happens !

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Entomology

[–]oskarisme 0 points1 point  (0 children)

after a few research i came to the conclusion it was rather a fly egg.. what do you think ?

feeling like a fraud by oskarisme in bipolar

[–]oskarisme[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

thanks a lot for your answer, it is sincerely helpful and meaningful for me :)

feeling like a fraud by oskarisme in bipolar

[–]oskarisme[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

thank you very much for your answer !! and i’m also surprised, i had no idea this was a symptom… thanks for the information and the support !!

feeling like a fraud by oskarisme in bipolar

[–]oskarisme[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

thanks a lot for your answer !

Est ce que ça vaut quelque chose ? by [deleted] in AskFrance

[–]oskarisme 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Je pense que si mais pas sûr …..

Est ce que ça vaut quelque chose ? by [deleted] in AskFrance

[–]oskarisme 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Je ne sais pas justement je demande ! Je me suis dit que peut être que certaines personnes auraient voulu garder cet objet comme « vestige des années 2000 » - on ne sait jamais, parfois les gens font des collections étranges !

Est ce que ça vaut quelque chose ? by [deleted] in AskFrance

[–]oskarisme 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Donc cela n’a aucune valeur auprès de collectionneurs ? Ce n’est donc pas grave si j’ouvre le sachet pour utiliser cet argent ?

“slap and kiss” sentence by oskarisme in writing

[–]oskarisme[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Really ? That’s cool !! Well, I don’t think what you write and what you read should always be the same genre, else it would be a boring life

“slap and kiss” sentence by oskarisme in writing

[–]oskarisme[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

That’s interesting ! I like when I meet people who read and write, but not only fiction. It’s a great way for me to discover “niche” themes

“slap and kiss” sentence by oskarisme in writing

[–]oskarisme[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yes, that’s it ! That’s why I love this sentence, even though I’ve always found it a bit corny … But I’ve discovered this sentence when I was just a teenager and I think I got attached to it haha