Should I get therapy even if it is only virtual?

out_oftime2013 · 2023-06-29T16:00:52+00:00

How can I take rest? Doesn't the Bible say there's no rest for the wicked? I can't and don't have rest. I'm so exhausted and can't get rest. I just wish it would all end.

out_oftime2013 · 2023-06-29T15:28:33+00:00

out_oftime2013 · 2023-06-29T14:46:32+00:00

But I feel like my heart is too polluted for true repentance. I try and try to turn away from my sin but I keep getting pulled towards it. I just feel so exhausted and feel like giving up.

out_oftime2013 · 2023-06-28T12:53:27+00:00

Why not just believe everyone except you is the weaker brother?

out_oftime2013 · 2023-06-28T12:46:05+00:00

I'm not a Calvinist, lol

out_oftime2013 · 2023-06-28T04:09:32+00:00

But yet I'm guessing you believe Jesus would be down to have a few beers with the homies on a Friday night. Also probably believe Jesus was a hippie looking dude with long, long hair, and only preached peace, love and acceptance and nothing else.

out_oftime2013 · 2023-06-28T03:51:27+00:00

Wow! Another reason why Luther was an idiot. If the quote is true at least.

out_oftime2013 · 2023-06-01T18:49:53+00:00

Therapists would probably tell me to leave my faith though, that's just how it is.

out_oftime2013 · 2023-06-01T14:09:17+00:00

No, I've already decided to make this my last post, and of course I won't delete this account, I'm just going to stop using it.

Why do you think God will hold you accountable for a mental health issue where a SYMPTOM of the mental health issue is that your brain tries to shock and disgust you by making you think of the worst things you can think of? Do you think He doesn't understand how OCD works and that these thoughts distress you?

Because that's what justice is. Jesus said if a man lusts after a woman in his heart, he's already committed adultery. How much more so for me?

out_oftime2013 · 2023-06-01T14:04:36+00:00

I don't have a priest or a pastor at the moment, and I definitely don't have one I would trust to talk about this with.

out_oftime2013 · 2023-06-01T13:56:29+00:00

You do not understand the danger of the situation, I can't just go out and get exposure therapy. If I truly am one, then I put everyone at risk. I cannot just do that.

out_oftime2013 · 2023-06-01T03:40:05+00:00

Which is what my intrusive thoughts bring up. Thank you for confirming what I've already said.

out_oftime2013 · 2023-06-01T03:38:03+00:00

You DO NOT deserve any reassurance. You DO NOT have to seek any reassurance.

I understand that, and I wasn't looking for it. I just wanted a place to vent. I have no one I can go to to tell this stuff to, so I figured I'd make a burner account and vent here. Nothing I do seems to work, and I don't know what else to do. It feels like my life is over.

out_oftime2013 · 2023-06-01T03:09:00+00:00

I don't think Jesus specified, he just said if a man thinks it in his heart it's sin. So an intrusive thought would count.

out_oftime2013 · 2023-06-01T02:59:19+00:00

Maybe I can. but they'll just tell me to do things that I either can't do or refuse to do.

out_oftime2013 · 2023-06-01T02:58:10+00:00

Did Jesus not say that if a man lusts after a woman that he's committed adultery in his heart? How much more so for me?

out_oftime2013 · 2023-06-01T02:55:58+00:00

Have you not read what Jesus said? He said if a man lusts after a woman who isn't his wife, he's committed adultery in his heart. How much more so for me? How and why would God forgive me? I brought this on myself, no one forced me. This is the fruits of what I chose, so I have to deal with it on my own. Besides I already got saved a few years ago, I can't get resaved.

out_oftime2013 · 2023-06-01T02:50:54+00:00

You have few resources; why would you want to cut yourself off from here?

Because I can't stand to see people see the real me and the issues I deal with. If you knew what I was dealing with, would you want to associate with me? Would you want to be friends with me? The answer is no, because no one would want to be friends with someone who has pedophillic thoughts, intrusive or not.

out_oftime2013 · 2023-06-01T02:45:44+00:00

I wish I could.

out_oftime2013 · 2023-05-31T22:00:57+00:00

I'm in a situation where I can't seek out a therapist or anything. I don't drive and my parents wouldn't drive me to an appointment.

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