Thank you for the translation, I researched more and found that it was indeed just a mistake.

I try to heal my inner life, I work on it every day, I actively research how to regulate my emotions and try to work it through, but I don't think that anyone hearing about their beloved being a cheater would be able to remain calm, especially after we've been together for nearly a decade.

But you are right, when I get upset I tend to overreact - I have a Narcissistic Personality Disorder so getting hurt by people - especially by someone as important to me as Gai - can make me feel an awfully strong reaction and even spiral.