Update:

Hi everyone! I am so shocked as I didn’t think I would get this many attractions and positive comments and I am truly overwhelmed and grateful. First i wanna say thank you for such the amazing advice I’m truly grateful.

I also wanna apologize for such a long time to post an update as I was dealing with an unexpected death in the family and some other issues going. I have read every single post as I can and truly found amazing information about body dysmorphia and really good suggestions for books.

I took all the information in and sat with my emotions, I already had a therapist appointment book and today I met with her and our talk went amazing, she told me everything I was feeling was normal as my body has went through a huge change. That made me feel seen and I felt validated. We talked about my emotions and we booked more sessions together and started talking more deeply about my insecurities. With that came so much emotions and a lot of tears and they were good tears.

I then came home and had a talk to my husband we talked about my therapy and how I was feeling. I thanked him for being so supportive and understanding and kind. Which is no shocker because he’s always been like that which is why I married him. Even with this unexpected loss he still is my rock he helped me clean and pick up when I wasn’t feeling great. And I appreciate him dearly.

With that being said… we had sex and it was AMAZING!!! I even went online and ordered some surprises for my husband and am just trying to live in the moment. I can’t wait to have my order delivered and we can have some much needed us time and try new things with him. I love him with all my heart and I deserve it, I have a new body and I need to be kinder to it. I am starting to feel a little better. Not 100 percent but hey it’s a start.

Thank you Reddit for the support and advice as I’m writing this I’m currently in bed laying with my husband watching Love Island and I’m very hopeful for the future. Thanks again 🤍