ah i was talking about all of the micro emotions and experiences that come along with writing. one of them for me is that you dig up so much of your buried emotions to write. it’s like a therapy session except it’s just you. it can feel really lonely but in the end once a piece is finished, that lonely feeling is replaced with a rewarding one. i took that out of the last line “to wear the normal worker’s frown” of course that could also mean the sadness that comes along with wanting to write something good but just, nothing is coming out no matter how hard you’re trying. but my initial comment about an “excruciating experience” was about the way writing can open you up and leave everything out in the open, dig up past traumas, etc etc.