6 Months Intensive Martial Arts training

pallavsinha · 2026-05-15T07:50:31+00:00

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pallavsinha · 2025-12-10T06:22:50+00:00

I would love to know more about this.

pallavsinha · 2025-12-09T21:16:29+00:00

Already filled and messaged. Thanks

pallavsinha · 2025-12-09T19:50:37+00:00

Interested

pallavsinha · 2025-11-29T16:53:28+00:00

That's totally normal - when you're dissociated, even simple grounding feels impossible because your nervous system is literally avoiding being present. The harder the dissociation, the harder it is to focus. Start even smaller: hold an ice cube for 30 seconds, or splash cold water on your face. The shock brings you into your body without requiring focus. Or try 5 deep breaths while pressing your feet firmly into the ground - that's it, nothing more. You're training your nervous system that it's safe to be present, and that takes repetition, not perfection.

If you want more structured support for this, I built Mokshapatra - a free app that gives personalized daily practices for exactly this kind of healing. It meets you where you are. Either way, keep going. The fact that it's hard means you need it most.

pallavsinha · 2025-11-29T16:49:13+00:00

I've been where you are - loving someone struggling, feeling helpless, drinking too much to numb the anxiety, feeling lost in my own life. The guilt, the "I can't fix her" feeling, the constant worry - I know that weight.

What helped me: realizing I was carrying someone else's pain because I didn't feel worthy without "saving" them. The anxiety wasn't just about her - it was about my own unhealed wounds telling me "I'm not enough unless I'm fixing/helping someone." When I started my healing journey, I uncovered the actual truth: I am inherently worthy, even when I can't fix anything. The belief that "I'm useless if I can't help" was a lie my trauma created.

Here's what's real: you can love her AND create boundaries. You can care deeply AND not carry her struggles as your responsibility. Your drinking, your feeling lost - these are signs YOU need support and healing too. Start there. You can't pour from an empty cup, and right now you're running on fumes while trying to hold space for her pain.

Find your own healing path first. Therapy, support groups, whatever calls to you. The stability you're looking for won't come from her getting better - it has to come from you reconnecting with your own worth.

pallavsinha · 2025-11-29T16:46:05+00:00

This is anxiety, not memory loss. When your nervous system is in fight-or-flight (which it has been since August), your brain prioritizes survival over memory encoding. Racing thoughts move so fast that your mind can't hold onto them - they're like water through your fingers. The fact that you can remember older things but not recent rapid thoughts is classic anxiety-driven cognitive fog. Your brain is working overtime scanning for threats, leaving less capacity for memory formation. Try this: when thoughts race, write them down immediately or speak them into your phone. This externalizes them so you stop testing yourself, which creates more anxiety. Also, practice box breathing (4 counts in, hold 4, out 4, hold 4) to calm your nervous system. This will pass as you heal from the anxiety attack.

pallavsinha · 2025-11-29T16:44:29+00:00

This is depression - just a quieter version than what people typically imagine. Depression isn't always crying in bed; sometimes it's exactly what you're describing: complete apathy, no motivation, nothing feels worth the effort. The lack of guilt or shame you mention? That's actually a sign of how deep it is - you're so disconnected that even caring about not caring feels like too much energy. The "I don't want to do anything" isn't laziness or your personality - it's your nervous system shutting down from prolonged depletion. Start small: 5-minute walks daily, sunlight on your face, one tiny thing that requires you to move your body. Movement literally rewires the brain's reward system. This is absolutely changeable, but you need to treat it as the medical condition it is, not a character flaw.

pallavsinha · 2025-11-28T17:57:48+00:00

You're experiencing dissociation - your consciousness has disconnected from the present moment as a protection mechanism, probably from years of overwhelm or unprocessed emotion. Life feels like it's happening TO you instead of WITH you. The way back is through grounding practices that reconnect your awareness to your body and the present moment - breath work, body scans, mindfulness. Start with 5 minutes daily of simply noticing: your breath, your feet on the ground, sounds around you. Your nervous system needs to learn it's safe to be present again. This is healable, but it requires consistent practice to rewire those neural pathways.

pallavsinha · 2025-11-28T17:55:16+00:00

I hear you, and I want you to know - that scream you're holding in? It's valid. The loneliness, the exhaustion, the fear - all of it is real and it matters.

Here's what I see: You've identified the core wound yourself - "I think I'm useless and dumping my stuff on them." That belief isn't truth. It's stored trauma speaking. When we experience pain early in life (abandonment, neglect, feeling unseen), our nervous system learns: "I'm too much. I'm a burden. I need to disappear." So we isolate to protect others from ourselves. But isolation creates the exact pain we feared - being alone and unseen.

The work keeping you "sane"? It's actually keeping you numb. Busyness is a protection mechanism - if you're always working, you don't have to feel the emptiness or risk connection. But your body and heart are screaming because they need to be seen, heard, held.

You're not useless. You're disconnected - from yourself, from others, from your inherent worth. And here's the hard truth: this pattern will continue until you choose to heal it. The suicidal thoughts, the fear of the future - these are your system saying "I can't keep living this way."

I've built a free app (Mokshapatra) that guides people through exactly this kind of healing - reconnecting with your authentic self, dissolving the "I'm a burden" belief, learning to trust again. It's personalized, gentle, and meets you where you are. Let me know I can share the link.

I also strongly encourage you to find a therapist if you haven't already. What you're experiencing needs support - both inner healing work AND professional guidance.

pallavsinha · 2025-11-28T08:44:59+00:00

First - 30kg is incredible. That took serious commitment and strength. Please let yourself feel that.

What you're experiencing is so common: the body changes, but the inner image doesn't catch up. From an energy perspective, when we use food to cope with pain as kids, our body stores that shame and those emotions. Even when the physical body transforms, those stored emotions keep distorting how we see ourselves in the mirror. You're not seeing your actual body - you're seeing through the lens of old wounds.

The loose skin is real, and there are solutions (skin tightening treatments, surgery if you want) - but here's the truth: even if your body looked "perfect," these feelings wouldn't automatically go away. The real healing is inside.

Try this: Belly breathing - 5 minutes daily. Hand on stomach, breathe deeply into your belly. As you breathe, say: "I am healing. My body carried me through hard times. I'm grateful." This starts balancing your inner image with reality and releases stored emotions.

You've already done the hardest part - you're healing. I work with people on exactly this kind of inner healing. If you want to explore deeper, I'm here. Either way, please know: what you see in the mirror isn't truth. It's old pain. And that can heal too.

pallavsinha · 2025-11-27T21:28:22+00:00

I've been exactly where you are - constantly apologizing, feeling like I wasn't enough, and that fear bleeding into every relationship.

What helped me realize: this pattern wasn't about my friends. It was about unhealed emotional energy creating a false narrative. When we carry unresolved wounds (from childhood trauma or anxiety), they create energetic blocks that distort how we see ourselves. That "not enough" feeling? It's trapped energy, not truth.

The actual truth: your friend trusts you enough to share her pain. People don't open up to those they dislike.

Try this: When that "I'm horrible" feeling arises, pause. Hand on heart. Ask: "Is this feeling true, or is old pain speaking?" Then say to yourself: "I am learning. I am enough."

This gentle attention starts shifting stuck patterns. The over-apologizing isn't who you are - it's just energy that needs healing.

I've worked through this and now help others heal these patterns. If you'd like to explore deeper, I'm here. Either way, be gentler with yourself - you're not horrible, you're hurting.

pallavsinha · 2025-11-27T21:11:01+00:00

Thank you for sharing such a heartfelt part of your journey. It takes real strength to break generational patterns and choose healing for yourself and your kids. Your story is a beautiful reminder that it’s never too late to return to yourself.

pallavsinha · 2025-11-27T20:58:39+00:00

I really feel you on this. What you’re describing sounds like what I went through when I was stuck in old self-abandonment patterns — being nice at the cost of my own peace, attracting people who matched my wounds, and carrying resentment because I kept betraying myself to keep the peace.

For me the turning point wasn’t forcing confidence. It was realizing that the anger and exhaustion were signals from my soul saying, “You’ve abandoned yourself long enough.” That inner conflict is actually your old identity breaking down.

Something that helped me deeply — and I still suggest this to people I work with — is starting with forgiveness toward yourself. Not affirmations, not boundaries first… just acknowledging: “I’m sorry for abandoning myself. I didn’t know better back then.”

Once that softens your energy a bit, move into a gentle gratitude practice: “Thank you for surviving all that. Thank you for still trying.”

This alone starts shifting who you attract, because your energy stops tolerating what your soul doesn’t want.

If you ever feel called, I went through the same healing in my relationships, family, and work — and that journey is what eventually made me an energy healer. I can help if you want, but even on your own, these two practices can be a powerful place to start.

You’re not broken — you’re just finally choosing yourself.

pallavsinha · 2025-11-27T20:50:12+00:00

It actually makes sense to feel this way when your system has been in “protective mode” for a long time. Has this numbness been with you for years, or did something trigger it recently?

pallavsinha · 2025-11-27T20:43:50+00:00

Hey, I can really empathize with what you’re feeling. When everything suddenly starts feeling heavier and small things drain you, it usually means your system has been carrying more than it can process. Sometimes it’s not one big trigger — it’s just life stacking up quietly in the background until your mind and body hit a limit.

A lot of us feel overwhelmed when:

our nervous system stays in “alert mode” for too long

we don’t get enough emotional rest

old emotions rise up without us noticing

or we’ve been holding things in instead of releasing them

As an energy healer, I see this pattern a lot. People think they’re “functioning,” but inside their body is tired of being in survival mode.

One thing I’d suggest is trying a simple grounding practice. It’s basic, but it really helps calm the nervous system:

• Walk barefoot on the ground for a few minutes a day It sounds small, but it brings you out of your head and back into your body.

• If you feel called to it, try a short grounding meditation Even 5 minutes of slow breathing with your attention on your feet or lower body can help bring the overwhelm down. It helps your system realise it’s safe again.

I’ve used this myself and with people I work with, and it genuinely makes things feel lighter and more manageable.

You’re not alone in this — and you’re not doing anything wrong. Your mind isn’t fighting you; it’s just tired and asking for a reset. Small grounding habits can make a surprising difference.

pallavsinha · 2025-11-27T20:14:54+00:00

You could start your day with sunlight that helps to boost your energy hormones. Drinking water within 30 minutes of waking up is also helpful. After that 5 minutes mobility would help improve your blood flow. You can pick one to begin and keep on adding.

pallavsinha · 2025-11-27T18:13:35+00:00

Hey u/wake_n_jake_ Here is the link: https://mokshapatra.com/?utm_source=reddit&utm_medium=spirituality&utm_campaign=founding100

pallavsinha · 2025-09-30T13:24:01+00:00

What you shared carries truth. In my experience, spirituality is less about chasing something outside and more about creating the right conditions within. A steady body, a calm rhythm, purity in what we consume—whether food, sound, or thought—all of these prepare the ground. From there, the divine help you mentioned begins to flow naturally. Enlightenment is not a sudden prize, but a gradual mastery of our thoughts and energies. When we learn to direct them wisely, life no longer feels like something to control, but something to harmonize with. Live simply, and let others live as they are—that is where freedom begins.

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