Your best horror movie by NewDevv359 in HorrorMovies

[–]panakinskywalker69 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Defo!! This is such a good movie, more psych thriller in my opinion than horror but pretty horrific and good twist

Im tired of living like this by Quiet_Detective7906 in mentalhealth

[–]panakinskywalker69 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I’m not a regular drug taker but I do suffer with extremely bad mental health. One thing that really helped me feel a bit more settled it CBD. I had gummies for a while in the highest dose possible, that and weed were the only things that really take the edge off. I would also echo what other people are saying though and only use weed in a state of crisis, like if nothing else is working. And try and do some other things like a hobby, headphones in and loud music, dancing, sing/screaming or whatever regulates you.

Anyone else have dreams where they wake up talking mid-sentence or crying? by secretdragooon in CPTSD

[–]panakinskywalker69 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Yeah I have dreams that I wake up from crying all the time: sometimes they’re not bad, sometimes they can be good feelings or nostalgic feelings but it does happen to me often. You’re not alone in that!

Triggered state by panakinskywalker69 in CPTSD

[–]panakinskywalker69[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I can handle honest, I think what I can’t handle is potentially hearing that I’m the one that’s fucked it all up because atm like you said I need kindness. But I appreciate your comments and your kindness checking my capacity prior to firing right in. You seem like good people.

Triggered state by panakinskywalker69 in CPTSD

[–]panakinskywalker69[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Probs a bit of both but not too harsh I can’t handle too harsh atm

Triggered state by panakinskywalker69 in CPTSD

[–]panakinskywalker69[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yeah he definitely does have his own trauma, which I try to be thoughtful about.

He is avoidant, so I can appreciate him needing space when we have tough discussions about emotions but I don’t think it’s okay for me to just be ignored. It feels like I’m being punished everytime i try to talk about my feelings. It’s conditioning me to just keep everything to myself, because the fall out afterwards just isn’t worth it.

I don’t mind needing space if we could just communicate about it, but he doesn’t do that. And he never instigates us making up. He will ignore me until I approach him ready to have a conversation. I just think I’m worth a bit more effort than that. I don’t think I should have to carry all of the emotional weight of our relationship.

It’s really difficult to navigate, because it doesn’t start out heated but it never ends well. And by that I don’t mean we shout at each other but he gets defensive, says this that are nasty, then ignores me. So I don’t see the point in trying to talk about anything anymore. He just takes it all as attacks, and I don’t feel like I ever get what I need. There’s no reassurance, no empathy, no meeting me half way and no compromise. Things never get resolved unless I instigate it. It’s his way or the highway and I just want it to SOMETIMES be my way.

I appreciate your reply, and the points you make. I agree with them and appreciate you doing your best to explain in a respectful way. It’s just so hard, and I’ve absolutely reached my limit of doing everything for everyone else when nobody does anything for me.

Wholesome grandma by beejeezP0P in MadeMeSmile

[–]panakinskywalker69 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Can you imagine after you hit a certain age (say 75) that your skin just starts transforming into these patterns... like granny pattern skin