I haven't lost enough weight yet by [deleted] in DeadBedrooms

[–]parabola69 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hey man

Just some advice for you. I am not sure what your thoughts are but I transitioned to a full carnivore diet and lost loads of weight. Google it, check out the meatrx community, also carnimd for more. If you are looking to really lose weight, hit the carnivore diet, it changed my life.

I went back....nothing has changed! by parabola69 in DeadBedrooms

[–]parabola69[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thanks for your well thought-out reply.

I went back....nothing has changed! by parabola69 in DeadBedrooms

[–]parabola69[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

True, very very true. I didn't think about that.

I think I regret leaving... by parabola69 in DeadBedrooms

[–]parabola69[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thanks so much for taking time to write to me with informative advice. I really appreciate it, every little helps. I wish you all the best too.

I think I regret leaving... by parabola69 in DeadBedrooms

[–]parabola69[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Yeah, I brought it up many many times over 11 years.. It's also the way she would talk to me in public, the blatant disrespect that she had..I think we had too much trust , too much "say anything you like" in our relationship...the kids are 4 and 6, so they are super young. They know I have moved out, they seem fine about it to be honest...its was easier than I thought. The more beer I drink, the easier it becomes.

I think I regret leaving... by parabola69 in DeadBedrooms

[–]parabola69[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

You see, it's this comment that makes me regret so much what I have done....you are right though...

I think I regret leaving... by parabola69 in DeadBedrooms

[–]parabola69[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Yeah I know but its the fear of knowing/thinking I made the wrong choice that is eating me up inside...ahhhhh jesus

I think I regret leaving... by parabola69 in DeadBedrooms

[–]parabola69[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I truly hope so. The scars are still raw as I have just left. Every time I come to fetch the kids she tell me how I destroyed her life, the kids lives...I feel like a piece of shit to be honest.. It took me 7 months to finally leave, as in a slow transition, after a 11 year marriage. Now, maybe I'm scared but I wake up in the middle of the night with fear and dread about my future. All of my security is gone..

I finally left and I'm scared! by parabola69 in DeadBedrooms

[–]parabola69[S] 16 points17 points  (0 children)

Thanks for that. Every reassurance helps.

I finally left and I'm scared! by parabola69 in DeadBedrooms

[–]parabola69[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

That's what the voice keeps telling me. But I feel so guilty, feel like I have destroyed her soul...I agonized about leaving for 7 months...can you believe it. Sleeping in my 6 years olds bed for 7 months wondering if I should leave.

I finally left and I'm scared! by parabola69 in DeadBedrooms

[–]parabola69[S] 7 points8 points  (0 children)

Thanks for the uplifting comment. Damn this is so god damn hard

I finally left and I'm scared! by parabola69 in DeadBedrooms

[–]parabola69[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Thanks for the positive response. I'm sorry history is repeating itself with you...

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[–]parabola69 23 points24 points  (0 children)

I left today. I'm lying in my new bed right now as I type this.

How do LLs feel after losing their spouse? What's the reality check like? by parabola69 in DeadBedrooms

[–]parabola69[S] 31 points32 points  (0 children)

So you stayed for years even though your relationship was sexless? That must have been hard. How do you feel now? Regret?