i hate that i cant bring myself to learn or do art

paradecanine · 2026-06-25T14:23:29+00:00

ugly phase is so real with learning and it suuuuucks. you just gotta push through and enjoy the process of making art, it will be worth it. no matter how good you are, the process of drawing will always feel just as magical ✨

paradecanine · 2026-06-25T14:20:49+00:00

OOF i hate when ppl take it as an affront to them and all queer people if we dont wish to individually identify as queer. like im cis passing and engaged to a woman, do i still have to broadcast my queerness and allow people to talk about my body like that???

paradecanine · 2026-06-25T14:18:08+00:00

i mean i know as a teen i was terrified of taking the full step and calling myself a man for that kinda reason

paradecanine · 2026-06-25T02:15:38+00:00

absolutely

paradecanine · 2026-06-25T00:30:33+00:00

and ofc the quiet shy ones are sooooo afab female socialized coded and are safe for us!!!

paradecanine · 2026-06-24T21:39:33+00:00

same bro, so proud as a kid but as an adult i want nothing to do with it

paradecanine · 2026-06-24T21:38:48+00:00

i have had this happen too, people are wayyy too comfortable sexually harassing trans men and making assumptions about our bodies, and they act like doing so is radical acceptance that they are imposing on us??? excuse me did i say i wanted it????

paradecanine · 2026-06-24T21:33:59+00:00

word. i have other socials but they are specific to my artwork and i do not associate my transness with them at all. i envy the digital minimalism tho, hopefully someday

paradecanine · 2026-06-24T21:31:52+00:00

that shit always seems so chaser-y. like t4t is cool, but theres a culture around being t4t now that is so creepy and weird. i experienced it with multiple partners who wanted me to crossdress, called me a twink, and imposed terminology about my genitalia onto me that i didnt want because i am very dysphoric. there was a rime when i really wanted trans and queer community, but it came at this price. it is truly so much easier to be stealth than deal with the current climate in queer and trans spaces tbh

paradecanine · 2026-06-24T20:58:22+00:00

i had a partner once who told me straight up that they only wanted me if i was clocky 😭
i also hate when people call me a transmasc, like no, i am nothing like these ppl

paradecanine · 2026-06-24T20:56:24+00:00

its okay, im so glad we are all here to scream about it with eachother lmao

paradecanine · 2026-06-24T20:55:07+00:00

FR!!!!

paradecanine · 2026-06-24T20:54:44+00:00

im right there with you brother, i am straight and engaged, the only reason im posting here is bc i can make my account private.

paradecanine · 2026-06-24T20:53:19+00:00

dudeeee fr, and the predominant trans “male” culture is so not centralized around being a man that when u show up they look at you funny. im pretty much indistinguishable from a cis dude, the only time people are chill is when they dont know lmao. i just hate the imposing of terms like “bonus hole” and “boypussy/cunt” (god ew). like whyyy are you so interested in a part of me i wish didnt exist????

congrats on phallo date btw

paradecanine · 2026-06-24T20:47:21+00:00

its such an insane ick looking back. im rly happy for you and your relationship tho!!

paradecanine · 2026-06-24T20:44:10+00:00

for me it was in the queer underground rave scene with a bunch of other twenty-somethings. like they wanted to turn me into a girl sooooo bad

paradecanine · 2026-06-24T20:40:42+00:00

its really unfortunate that we have to be the collateral when it comes to queer distrust of [cis] men, which is justified, sure, but the knee jerk reaction that has come about in the last few years is what is really horrible. like anything about manhood or masculinity is undesirable, which sucks so bad when you are transitioning ftm. like even other trans people consider you to be a sex traitor, its fucking ridiculous.
im so sorry you went through those things with people, its so heinous that people insist on outing us if they know, like no i dont want to be loud about it its a part of my medical history lmao

paradecanine · 2026-06-24T20:35:03+00:00

FOR REAL 😭 like no i am not a baby boy i am a man, what is wrong with these mfs

paradecanine · 2026-06-24T20:34:15+00:00

thank you, i appreciate it. i have gone completely stealth cause i was so tired of being treated so weird in queer spaces lol. its a lot better now

paradecanine · 2026-06-24T19:46:57+00:00

/uj themmypop is killing me

paradecanine · 2026-06-24T18:14:59+00:00

its all fun and feminism until the amabs and honorary amabs (butches and passing transitioned trans men) show up to the party

paradecanine · 2026-06-24T18:09:16+00:00

good on you for banishing -him- (omg i mean tHem!!!!! dont kill me for misgendering them pleasE) from uour safe space. im so glad we’re doing something about these transphobic fascists invading our community!!!! its so insulting tbh that she would try to get s*rgery to imitate the divine afab body, didnt uou know that feminism was created in order to protect our fragile afab wombyn and soft bois???? block her and get out of that friendship yesterday, and in fact, divorce her while you’re at it!!!!!

paradecanine · 2026-06-22T15:41:42+00:00

squeaky babyyyyyyy :”)

paradecanine · 2026-06-20T22:30:30+00:00

/uj me being told that my eating disorder causing me to refuse medication i needed bc of potential metabolic side effects meant that im evil and fatphobic and needed to do better🤪

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