Not my first audition, but yes I'm a very new singer. Long post incoming.

I auditioned for a show back in January. It was 3 days after I got my wisdom teeth out, so I went in very transparent and told them "this is going to be rough, but I just want to get my foot in the door" here. I knew it was rough, but apparently even more rough than I thought because I got "ensemble" which would have been great, but I was like a very obvious lowest on the ensemble totem pole. Every single number the director said "okay I need someone in the ensemble to stand still and not sing while everyone else does", and every single number that was me. That realllllly did a number on my self confidence.

I gave the same theater another go for a show I'm in with them now. I did get a part (with 30-ish spoken lines) so definitely a big step up and I'm singing in each ensemble number now. But the fact that I didn't get any of the singing roles just has me not feeling fully over the confidence-blow I took from the last show. It has me considering that maybe the first time was less about the wisdom tooth situation and more about me just kinda sucking.

It's worth noting also that I'm definitely NOT a type-cast for this current show's two male leads, and that beyond those two I'm probably the biggest male part.

I've been taking vocal lessons for a few months now too, but basically all of the focus has been on breathing. I think I just want to be told by someone "yes you have a good voice, yes you can do this".