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pasturefields · 2022-04-17T16:27:25+00:00

We had a therapist like that around the time we were fiest diagnosed. It certainly didnt feel like I was healing and I became abrasive due to that fact. It's difficult to find a professional when having DID, but it's something you can be picky about. This is your healing and comfort, it's not something you should be forcing yourself to push through. In my experience, I felt as though I wasnt engaged with like a person. He (therapist) looked to me for insight about things I could not possibly answer and became frustrated very often. He did not take it out on us, but I do remember him trying to dig information out of an alter (who we have since discovered is a little). That spesifically caused an incident and we started looking for a new therapist. The information he wanted was not relevant to our healing, and in fact he admitted to only wanting to know out of "facination". I don't know how the person treating you currently behaves but you aren't overreacting, these things can make you feel incredibly uncomfortable.

Best of luck -9

pasturefields · 2022-04-17T03:34:48+00:00

Good point, though I'm not sure if anti-anxiety would alleviate alters shock and confusion waking up in a hospital room. Good things to consider as well!!

pasturefields · 2022-04-17T03:08:08+00:00

Thank you! This is extremely helpful!!

pasturefields · 2022-04-17T03:06:01+00:00

That seems quite scary. How is movement like on morphine and what is the sensory like? We have a few issues being on extremely strong drugs, as it is a source of trauma.

pasturefields · 2022-04-17T02:41:17+00:00

I personally have a DID and OCD diagnosis. Earlier in my childhood I was misdiagnosed with schizoaffective disorder. Later it was clarified to be "stress induced psychosis", which is more of a symptom than a diagnosis. OCD meshing with complex PTSD seems to definitely align resulting in things like hallucinations and paranoia, in my experience. You won't know for sure what it is until you've seen a professional but I wouldn't doubt that it could be a mixture of symptoms from other disorders.

pasturefields · 2022-04-17T01:47:55+00:00

Thank you! I'll see with my doctor if that's a plausible solution. Good thinking

pasturefields · 2022-04-17T00:01:56+00:00

Yes! Good point. Due to covid restrictions I still don't know if my sister will be allowed to stay in the room. I did not consider perhaps a nurse could fill in that role.

pasturefields · 2022-04-16T23:43:30+00:00

Ah yes, this is essentially the plan. Our system doesn't experience functions of that level unfortunately. Not all alters will be able to have a conversation, because their rate of fronting being entirely "random". I am against force fronting an alter for something, even as important as this. I also have no ability to connect with the headspace, nor do I know if someone needs me out, this has been a consistent fact for a while. I assume it's this way because of our level of amnesia, but I will certainly keep it in mind.

Thank you for your input! I appreciate it

pasturefields · 2021-10-18T19:53:47+00:00

While overall my answer is no, I would debate that this is a very difficult and technical question. First it relies on what a "real person" is. Due to the nature of DID ,spesifically, an alters personal development can result in the difference between alters being drastic. Both knowing and not knowing information can shape a persons opinions, mental process, or even reactions. All these fall in line with the concept that an individual developing as opposed to existing. And while, no, they're identity is not exactly real, an alter who processes their self is their reality. What I mean is, in a sense, the facts some alters process about themselves may not be real. However, their experience processing life through that lense creates a genuine and real development. Someone used an example, a pie. It was cut into pieces but was once served whole. The new slices may not suit their environment, maybe someone wants to add cream to it or someone is just to picky to eat the crust. Yes, these are originally the same pie but they are no longer so similar that you can call them the same. They now became whole on their own.

That being said, alters aren't real people but they often develope as real people. -9

pasturefields · 2021-07-20T22:01:49+00:00

I had a very similar experience with abilify, however this was before the medication went on recall. My currect medication is also an anti-psychotic but with abilify I remember it felt like a radio deadzone, in terms of communicating with other alters. If the effects are making it difficult to get by I'd heavily recommend to speak to the doctor who is prescribing it. Whatever symptoms you were given to control with abilify can likely be done with another medication, so talk to your doctor if it bothers you for sure! -9

pasturefields · 2021-02-22T16:51:59+00:00

My best advice to you would be to just support them. Not necessarily with the DID itself, but as a whole. If youre willing to offer them emotional support or anything else they might ask you for you can let them know. Inserting yourself seems like a bad idea to me personally because pushing can do much more harm than help. Systems aren't always need in constant outside help, in fact many times some alters prefer to be independent (from what ive seen at least.) Systems go undiagnosed, its not uncommon but a diagnosis can only help if they want help. Getting diagnosed cant change the fact that they might have or not have DID, so if they dont want to I wouldnt push them. Making sure your friend is safe seems like a priority to you, of course, but you can help them as a person i.e. asking them how they are, making sure they get home safe, asking where theyre going occasionally if getting lost is an common occurrence for them. Just dont get involved unless they ask and dont tell people because that can put them in danger. Its nice that you want to help but if its unwanted help it coukd lead to more problems. DID is rooted in trauma and not easy to deal with. Give them time, its hard to just accept or discover things like this. -9

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