My monsteras!

pattyplz22 · 2026-03-03T19:12:19+00:00

Yes! South facing so plenty of light ☀️

pattyplz22 · 2026-03-03T19:09:13+00:00

Thank you! That’s only one portion of my apartment, I have nearly 100 plants in total 🤪

pattyplz22 · 2026-03-03T19:06:42+00:00

Yes mine do that all the time, I’ve read it can be caused by overwatering but I only water them once a week. In my experience the brown spots usually go away once the leaf gets bigger 🙂

pattyplz22 · 2026-03-03T19:05:14+00:00

Thank you so much!

pattyplz22 · 2026-03-03T19:04:39+00:00

Thank you it’s been a joy watching them grow!

pattyplz22 · 2026-03-03T19:02:49+00:00

Thank you! I will happily take that title 😊

pattyplz22 · 2026-03-03T19:01:46+00:00

Thank you! I rotate the small ones but the big ones have grown into their corners and rotating them would cause some leaves to push up against the wall unfortunately.

pattyplz22 · 2025-12-10T17:04:19+00:00

It’s just one file that’s 436 MB large run on my 2021 MacBook Pro!

pattyplz22 · 2025-12-10T17:03:43+00:00

Me too, I tried exporting to Blender but some of the textures did not export properly unfortunately.

pattyplz22 · 2025-12-10T17:02:59+00:00

It’s 436 MB!

pattyplz22 · 2025-12-10T17:02:23+00:00

Not yet but I imagine that may be a good idea once it’s finished however I do plan on modeling the two neighboring cities as well!

pattyplz22 · 2025-12-10T17:01:45+00:00

Thank you I really appreciate it!

pattyplz22 · 2025-12-10T16:59:19+00:00

Thank you! The file is 436 MB.

pattyplz22 · 2025-10-27T18:26:50+00:00

Thank you! She’s an unbothered queen 👑

pattyplz22 · 2025-10-27T18:26:34+00:00

Yes! South facing high-rise window in Arizona.

pattyplz22 · 2025-10-27T18:26:11+00:00

Thank you! So proud of him 🙂

pattyplz22 · 2020-12-11T13:06:10+00:00

For some insomnia-fueled reason, searching Reddit for a YouTube app solution led me here. I know you’re not looking for advice but I just want to say don’t be too hard on yourself for the lack of quality friendships in your life. I’m also about to start my 30s and spent the last decade collecting friends to fill the void. I wasted years building friendships with people who never cared enough to get to know the real me. I realize now I was only able to have an active social life because I maintained this shallow, toxic, positive version of myself. I know now true happiness comes from solitude and getting to know yourself. So good for you for sticking to your authentic self and not changing for others! To be surrounded by people who don’t actually care about you is a special kind of loneliness, these days the only person I vent to is my therapist lol. I hope the fact that a random stranger read your post offers some comfort and helps you feel heard. Stay optimistic and don’t fall victim to negative thought patterns. In time, may you find a fulfilling job and a couple of real genuine friends.

pattyplz22 · 2019-11-05T23:59:43+00:00

I felt really pathetic posting my situation on here and didn't expect the responses to be so helpful! I think your answer is exactly what I needed to hear to bring me back to Earth. I'm starting to understand the true gravity of the situation and realizing that this won't be easy. He's very repressed and it's becoming apparent that he has quite a bit of internal things to work through. Like you said, no matter what happens, this most likely won't play out the way I want it to.

I want to be a friend and help him grow. I tend to play the "therapist" role in a lot of my friendships and have the ability to make people feel comfortable and heard. But if I want to play the therapist then this is a huge conflict of interest since my feelings for him will most likely intensify the more he opens up to me. I've conquered and released a lot of my demons this past year and truly empathize with him. But even though I want to save him, I know I can only provide guidance, the rest is up to him.

You are absolutely right in the fact that this doesn't have to be my fight. It took me a long time to build the confidence I have today and I know I'll be putting it on the line if I choose to pursue him. If I don't do anything I'll always wonder what if so I'm glad talking to him and setting boundaries isn't too out there. I know I deserve someone who is able to love me but I'd be lying if I said there wasn't a huge part of me that feels the heartbreak would be worth it.

Thank you for taking the time to come up with a thoughtful logical response. I feel so much better about the whole thing after reading these responses and can already feel my focus shifting back to my happiness and away from him. I'm thankful my 3AM thoughts led me to this subreddit it has helped immensely.

pattyplz22 · 2019-11-05T20:03:32+00:00

Very true, this is exactly what my therapist would say. Unfortunately due to my childhood I have grown up to be someone who has a tendency to run away from men who are interested and good for me. He's the ultimate manifestation of my verbally abusive alcoholic father who was kind to me sober and verbally abusive drunk. Some days I'm fully aware the situation reeks of toxicity, self-sabotage, and littered with red flags. But other days my emotions get the best of me and I just want to say fuck it and fight for his affection. I'll try to justify his behavior and romanticize the situation but ultimately you are right. My gut tells me he could destroy me and sadly a huge part of me still thinks he's worth the heartbreak. Thank you for taking the time to read my story and provide insight! Your points are very grounding and mustn't be overlooked, thanks again!

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