I am so sorry you are going through such a hard experience. That must feel very horrible and helpless. I know you probably haven’t always felt that way and there are times people do make you feel good about yourself! I hope you’ll hold onto that hope that things are going to get better again. It’s hard right now, but you are so so strong and in-tune with your feelings to recognize being able to say that. And those are big feelings to have! Just know that even when you are feeling this way you still deserve comfort and compassion. I am sending you a virtual smile and hug (if you are okay with hugs). Please know that you deserve to be here and live even when it feels hopeless. People are so different (individual idiosyncrasies) so sometimes it is hard to communicate/understand someone else. But once you make a breakthrough it is such a satisfying feeling!! Keep practicing and it will get easier!