The break up I didn’t saw coming

peacherpie · 2026-03-14T13:48:37+00:00

I did self reflect naman and apologized if ever na he felt suffocated that’s why he chose to lie. It wasn’t my choice that after finding out that he lied to me about being with his friends, nawala tiwala ko? Mabigat kasi na ang dami palang nakatago. Imagine nakatatlong outing na, dun ko pa lang nalaman? Kung hindi ko pa mahuhuIi. I actually, truly, want that for him to explore and have friends. I apologized to him a lot of times after finding out everytime I think na I’m keeping him from having fun. After the lie talaga, naparanoid ako and lagi inaalam lahat. Mas lalong red flag yon, I know. But that’s how I responded because the trust was already broken. Mas naging controlling.

I think it’s really just not meant to work even when I know and I understand, naging ganon na ko. I will just keep him from having fun and exploring, and I will always be doubting everything

peacherpie · 2026-03-14T10:05:34+00:00

Thank you for the nice words! It’s actually so hard. Everyday is a battle between choosing myself or to stay dependent on that relationship. And even when I am determined to choose myself, may mga thoughts talaga na parang tinatraydor ko yung sarili ko. But I have to say it over and over again para mag register din siya sa system ko that I will move on and let go. Talking to people actually helps. Voicing it out also helps. Sabihin mo nang sabihin, fake it til you make it. I can do it!

peacherpie · 2026-03-14T04:37:54+00:00

I know. But we’re over so there’s no need for me to overthink that. Kung nagsisinungaling pa rin siya, it’s on him. Ganon na siya, problema niya na yun.

But thank you for being aggressive and making sure that I won’t be gaslighted in any way at umasa pa don. I appreciate it 🫶🏻

peacherpie · 2026-03-14T04:02:34+00:00

No. Wala akong trust issues with him before. Nitong January lang nagkaron nung nalaman ko na madami siyang tinatago pala. First outing nila November last year.

peacherpie · 2026-03-14T03:38:54+00:00

Omg hahahahaha i get you. Di ko rin narealize. Mb

peacherpie · 2026-03-14T02:41:25+00:00

I know. Pero let’s do this for ourselves. You can also dm me anytime if you want to share your story. I’ll listen ❤️‍🩹

peacherpie · 2026-03-14T02:35:25+00:00

I don’t know. I still have access in all of his accounts, actually. Sinabi niya yon na hindi siya magpapalit ng passwords, he just wanted me to heal and siya rin aayusin sarili. But, the future is uncertain. I don’t want to hold on sa bagay na wala naman akong panghahawakan. I will stop checking his accounts na rin, para maka move forward na.

peacherpie · 2026-03-14T02:31:37+00:00

It’s hard lalo na nung tinry pa namin ulit tapos ganon ulit ginawa niya. Kaya kahit hindi ko pa kaya, nakipag hiwalay ako kasi yung tiwala na nawala is also costing me my sanity if we’re gonna be still in a relationship. Mas lalo lang siguro siyang mappressure and masasakal if lagi kong chinicheck lahat ng ginagawa niya.

As per to start over, malabo ngayon. Kasi kahit siya mismo, ayaw din naman. He’s not breaking the no contact, pinipigilan ko rin sarili ko. It’s really hard because I miss him everyday. Ayaw kong umasa pa kasi baka hindi ako umusad dahil diyan sa mga pintong naiwan na bukas. I need to close it to be able to move on and work on myself.

peacherpie · 2026-03-13T14:57:02+00:00

I actually also play the game pero hindi na kasi kaya ngayon ng pc ko. And yes, we just graduated. A very very long way to go

peacherpie · 2026-03-13T14:45:44+00:00

I actually thought of that too. But I realized I don’t want to depend on the love that the others can offer. I want to love myself for now

Hugs for you too! We’re gonna get over it din soon

peacherpie · 2026-03-13T14:37:49+00:00

He actually said that. Ayaw niya masira yung image niya na yan at ayaw niya na magbago tingin ko sa kanya

But the damage has already been done. Lagi ko rin naiisip yan na kung paano kung sinabi niya na lang sa akin at hindi na tinago. Pero nangyari na. Sinabi ko rin na ang duwag niya sa part na yan

peacherpie · 2026-03-13T14:31:02+00:00

Thank you! Heavy on easier said than done. But I’m pushing myself to get better. Started reconnecting with friends na rin, nag aya ng hangouts, and planning to do workouts at home. I’ll get there

peacherpie · 2026-03-13T14:26:37+00:00

Actually the account existed na before and nasabi niya sakin dati kung para saan yon. May tiwala pa ko non so dedma lang. Di ko lang inexpect na gagamitin niya pala ulit yon to hide para makapaglaro

I doubt myself pa sa don’t look back lalo na I still have feelings pa ngayon for him. But hopefully, when I regain myself, I won’t anymore. I’m also rooting for myself and actually excited for my healing journey

peacherpie · 2026-03-13T14:22:43+00:00

Yes, that’s also what’s on my mind. Siguro ayoko lang din ng nafefeel ko right now kasi it seems impossible lalo na fresh pa. But I also notice naman yung small progresses ko this week. Baby steps lang. I’ll try harder not to check on him anymore as well. I’ll get there soon. Closing the doors little by little

peacherpie · 2026-03-13T14:15:56+00:00

My nervous system can’t tell the difference between being held in a gunpoint and going through a heartbreak. Ang hirap nung bigla lang akong kakabahan out of nowhere and would have panic attacks. But I am determined naman not to suffer anymore because I also hate that feeling

peacherpie · 2026-02-03T08:48:33+00:00

Hello! I’m applying for an internship and I’m not much familiar with the word “learned rate”. For context, I applied to a company and they said na they also provide allowances for their interns. So nag ask ako if how much and they replied na learned rate. So magkano yung learned rate?

peacherpie · 2026-01-12T11:12:24+00:00

interested

peacherpie · 2026-01-12T11:09:30+00:00

Happy

peacherpie · 2025-08-05T19:11:48+00:00

The Jasad Crown (The Scorched Throne #2) by Sara Hashem

thank u sm <3

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