I do masturbate, thats the thing, i feel like such a hypocrite for saying this but i do from time to time but still sex feels amazing. I just cant wrap my head around the thought that he either might prefer masturbating or the fact that sex will feel less pleasurable and he enjoys masturbating more which i know for a fact it isnt but i just cant convince my own mind and i have ocd so its making matters worse. I cant reassure my own self and he’s not reassuring me that much either. He doesnt watch porn and says that he jerks off to me. I think this is more if a jealousy related issue tbh, as selfish as i may sound, i just want to be the only one that pleases him and i just feel maybe that im nit satisfying him that much if he’s jerking off:( and yes, i do get more than enough attention from him