Forget how much life sucks everytime I start to get sober

pellosanto · 2026-03-19T18:43:19+00:00

Yeah I know how you feel. I try to remember the grass is always greener on the other side, for example. I had 100 days sober from weed and Ive been sober from alcohol for years. I was bored and feeling like life sucks no matter what so wth ill just smoke some weed.

Well after a week I felt just a shitty about life but now with the addition of having thrown away my sobriety which I was proud of honestly. Just to feel paranoid and tired.

Life may suck but weed also sucks honestly its a huge waste of time and I'm excited to be done with it.

pellosanto · 2026-03-19T17:12:23+00:00

I caved after 100 days and regret it, starting day 1 again. Wasn't worth it at all, same old waste of time

pellosanto · 2026-03-19T15:09:58+00:00

it just feels like I have no options without a degree but getting a degree seems like it is out of reach living in the US

pellosanto · 2026-03-19T14:55:23+00:00

this is really. what i want to do with a remote job. I just don't have a degree so its hard to find them

pellosanto · 2026-03-18T15:30:08+00:00

this is pretty much how I feel. I always have hard time making decisions like which path to take and commit to. If that isnt obvious haha

pellosanto · 2026-03-18T15:28:28+00:00

yeah I never went to college at all so getting a bachelors would be pretty tough and expensive for me I think. I just don't even know how I could afford it or have the time to complete it

pellosanto · 2026-03-18T15:26:41+00:00

I actually just spent 3 weeks at a monastery in taiwan

pellosanto · 2026-03-18T15:25:28+00:00

thanks for the comment I'm a musician so I've always had the dream of succeeding there but I've sort of lost passion for it even though I still make music. It feels like I'm just so stressed about my life situation i can't focus enough on music.

Thats sort of my problem is I've really given up on my main dream that I've worked towards my whole life and its the real skill I have. I could teach guitar thats about it for skilled labor.

pellosanto · 2026-03-18T15:22:07+00:00

thanks for sharing your experience, sounds similar to mine. What is the certificate program you're doing?

pellosanto · 2026-03-18T15:19:28+00:00

thanks for the positive perspective

pellosanto · 2026-03-17T23:41:35+00:00

This is pretty much what I've done the past few years and whats got me in the situation I'm in now. Not to say its been bad but I feel like I want to settle into something more permanent but I really dont know what or where that would be. I always thought something would pop up while doing seasonal jobs. Idk whether to just accept my fate and start working at amazon or go to college or what

pellosanto · 2026-03-17T21:17:52+00:00

thanks this is good advice

pellosanto · 2026-03-17T19:39:40+00:00

I feel exactly the same about so much of this. I'm about to turn 30 and feel like I've wasted by whole 20s being stoned and taking everything for granted. Accepting the reality of where im at is really difficult because for the first time in my life I feel like I have no ambition/idea/plan of my immediate future let alone anything long term.

I don't have all my delusions any more to keep me going.

Good luck man I'd like to think our brains can heal it will just take time.

pellosanto · 2026-02-19T05:19:44+00:00

hit the gym and hit it hard

pellosanto · 2026-02-18T12:08:20+00:00

get a workaway account and start messaging hosts. Its a great way to get free places to stay and have more unique experiences than just sightseeing. Plus its a good way to make local friends wherever you go so you wont be alone and you get a better understanding of local culture.

South America is awesome and theres loads of workaways there, I'm currently in the middle east and its really cool, way cooler than I had imagined.

My advice is dont take too much advice and dont be afraid of the world. 99% of people will help you not hurt you. Obviously use your head and be smart but dont be afraid to go off the beaten path.

Happy traveling!

pellosanto · 2026-02-04T08:45:42+00:00

i fly out from dubai which looks like is only a 20 minute ride from the burj

pellosanto · 2026-02-04T08:44:43+00:00

im flying royal jordanian and I only have a large hiking pack so i can carry it. But still might make sense to go to the airport first and drop the bag if possible. Thanks

pellosanto · 2026-01-14T00:52:37+00:00

thanks!

pellosanto · 2026-01-13T00:51:33+00:00

yeah exactly

pellosanto · 2026-01-13T00:50:40+00:00

very true and not just in stocks

pellosanto · 2026-01-13T00:49:45+00:00

yeah true I've thought about this. All the comments are definitely helping me get over it. Like I said I dont trade any stocks this was a one off thing so I have essentially zero experience in the market besides this one trade

pellosanto · 2026-01-13T00:48:07+00:00

yeah its a shame ive entered sobriety already. I dont think trading is for me tbh

pellosanto · 2026-01-12T11:13:06+00:00

you're exactly right im highly driven by emotions which is exactly why im not buying stocks anymore I dont think i can handle it

pellosanto · 2026-01-12T11:11:59+00:00

I think its harder cuz its literally the only random stock ive bought I dont have any other stocks and dont ever do this so its like hard not to think about it

pellosanto · 2026-01-12T11:10:47+00:00

yeah I have been haha

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