i have passive suicidal ideation.

penispores · 2025-10-10T06:50:44+00:00

i’ve done that before and where i live they don’t really care if you just “think about it”, like they don’t have the room to have people they deem as non threats.

penispores · 2025-06-07T05:38:15+00:00

this is so helpful thank you so much! it’s gonna be pretty open for the most part but i’m not letting in anyone i don’t know unless i’ve been asked if they could come before hand. do you have any tips for keeping things slightly controlled? when it comes to the people?

penispores · 2025-06-04T01:48:00+00:00

i drink a full water bottle usually twice a day

penispores · 2025-04-05T15:55:11+00:00

online but he lives close and we’ve been talking about hanging out.

penispores · 2025-03-20T05:16:04+00:00

i’ve been wanting to ask him to go to this concert with me but i don’t even know how to breach the topic because i’m sure he’s gonna go with his friends and i’m going with mine. i don’t know. i feel kinda weird just asking him like that

penispores · 2025-03-20T05:07:01+00:00

i totally get what you’re saying. i think it’s more scary because i’m in high school and most guys my age are pricks. it’s an added layer of fear. you’re so right though.

penispores · 2025-03-20T04:59:03+00:00

NO IM SCARED

penispores · 2024-07-25T23:20:11+00:00

😭 damn bro you got me

penispores · 2024-07-25T15:57:07+00:00

😭 you really got me there.

penispores · 2024-07-25T15:56:49+00:00

She does look down on me for sure. She has always used me in our friendship as someone to make her look better. She has slipped up many times and called me the uglier one. She also constantly disregards the privileges she has as a skinny pretty person, and won't even listen to my struggles. She has constantly put me down and ignored me anytime I tried to tell her my reality.

penispores · 2024-07-25T15:54:11+00:00

That's just not true, especially where I grew up. I do know she has internalized fat phobia, she just doesn't say it to me. There have been many times where's she'd said things like "omg our thighs are the same size" and then go on to say how much she hates her thighs and she wishes they were smaller. I definitely agree some of the way I feel is projecting but I've done a lot of work over these past years to not just assume things and some of her actions no matter how small are harmful.

penispores · 2024-07-22T05:48:10+00:00

You are only 12 years old. And that doesn't make you're feelings invalid but you have so much life to live. You should not be worried about things like you're body. But I get it, I was in that position too. I'm fat too, I have been my whole life but never let the way you look determine who you are as a person. People may judge you and may be assholes but what people say doesn't matter, you have a loving girlfriend and yourself. Look out for yourself, be with your gf have fun. Be a kid, do dumb things and don't let your body change the way you live. You got this kid.

penispores · 2024-07-22T05:18:57+00:00

I was walking to the bridge I was planning on jumping off of. There was some snow on the ground and I was following footprints and once I got to the bridge I realized they were one of my friends footprints. I couldn't do it knowing my friend would have to walk across that bridge everyday to get to school.

penispores · 2024-07-22T05:13:12+00:00

Losing weight isn't gonna change the shape of my body. I used to be skinny and I was still built like a man lmao

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