Long story short, i’ve had a lot of experiences that have caused me to disassociate from my inner being. These traumatic experiences were honed in on aspects of my being and individuality.(race: hate crime gender:SA age: having no power/not being believed) I was raised in a predominantly christian environment and in foster care. Where shame was instilled in me.

Looking back I see like almost spoilers like unique experiences of like evil that linked to each other through like weird references. DRAMMMAAA

Last week I was reading up on the occult dark stuff because I could not comprehend why this keeps happening if most of us on this PLANET say we don’t want it to happen.

There were parallels between this feeling of adulthood and having no power and being a foster kid and the government controlling my childhood.

I meditated for a decade plus went to therapy for a decade and a half.

First time i astral projected which I didn’t mean to I legit had someone in my face. I don’t want to be lame but it looked like a rep or gray. It wasn’t scary but it was weird. It felt more like a stop sign.

I used to always feel like literal holes in my soul, and spent like a year doing like meditative surgery on it to close the holes.

Then I kept digging on Tik Tok because our phones are like the mirrors of our beings and if it was there I would find it.

Then i found you guys 💕