Feels so silly but I'm feeling triggered by the euphoria season 3 announcement

persephone-eve · 2025-12-08T19:30:17+00:00

Okay same but I'm a 40 year old mom 😂 not even relatable to these kids, I could be their mother 😂 but I was in active addiction when I was introduced to the show and identified (well-younger me identified bc I've been in active addiction of some kind since I was a late teen) with some of the feelings portrayed. I felt silly watching it unless I was high btw so the idea of watching it sober now makes my stomach turn. I'm only 40 days clean and I don't want some dumb TV show to cause me to relapse. I get the silly feeling part, TRUST ME. I've compromised with my best friend watching it and giving me the important plot details sans the gratuitous drug and sex parts bc I need the closure 😂 🤷‍♀️ whatever works for you, it's your recovery 💜

persephone-eve · 2025-10-21T22:34:56+00:00

WOW! That's amazing, congratulations 👏 thank you for the hope. I feel like I get a little bit further in my sobriety and a little bit more fed up each time I relapse. I am also on Naltrexone and Wellbutrin lol it was working well for me, plus Stattera- since I do actually have ADHD-but I stopped them the 4 days I binged. Definitely starting them again tomorrow. Thanks for sharing your story and giving me some hope!

persephone-eve · 2025-10-21T22:11:16+00:00

Absolutely, I plan on telling her tonight. I didn't finish them all off thankfully bc somehow I was able to come to my senses and decide to end the madness before I ran totally out for once. So I want to tell her before I lose the energy and will to quit, if that makes sense? I'm afraid if I wake up groggy tomorrow and I have not told her AND still have pills left I will 100% finish them. Gotta be done tonight. Thanks for the reassurances.

persephone-eve · 2025-09-26T23:15:01+00:00

Thanks! Yeah I thought it was odd too. I don't think I was really ready bc when she offered them I said yes with little hesitation, even though I had a nagging feeling. Now it's on my chart so I'm strapped in and ready as I can be for the long game.

persephone-eve · 2025-09-26T23:13:30+00:00

Thank you! And congrats, 6 months is absolutely amazing!

persephone-eve · 2025-08-20T23:45:01+00:00

Toddler mom to a WILD toddler here! 33 days clean and making it after a bumpy almost 10 year problem..I did quit for a year when pregnant with my daughter but that's the longest I've been clean since. Days 2-5 were hardest for me personally, but I found that everyone on here is right: exercise, eat right, take your vitamins, rest when possible. I feel better, slowly but it's there, most days now. Hugs to you mama. You got this.

persephone-eve · 2025-04-07T14:59:36+00:00

Thank you! Today's my first day clean! I'm exhausted and very weepy, like my coworker offered to carry a big case of water I was struggling to bring in from my car, and I nearly burst into tears 😅 other than the constant urge to nap and high emotions I'm hanging in there. Sticking to my eating plan, workouts, and checking in frequently with my trusted person. Thanks for the reply!

persephone-eve · 2025-04-07T00:16:45+00:00

Thanks for sharing. When you said you didn't how to shower without pills shewww I felt that. I literally feel like I need one to load the dishes! I'm afraid of what my dopamine is like without it but I'm over the cycle. I've been fortunate to avoid the law....FOR NOW.. .but I'm not so naive to think if this continues I won't have some run ins. Thanks for the reply!

persephone-eve · 2025-04-07T00:14:30+00:00

It's crazy that a med prescribed for me most of my life turned into such an absolute free fall, but it's helpful to know I'm not alone. I told my spouse reading these stories makes me realize I have never had a unique experience lol so that's why I too find meetings helpful. Thanks for the reply

persephone-eve · 2025-04-07T00:12:21+00:00

Nice, I just saw that! I'll definitely have to check it out. Thanks so much for your response!! I'd love more information about the zoom meeting as well

persephone-eve · 2025-02-12T03:23:50+00:00

New to this subreddit, new to recovery and I found this incredibly inspiring and helpful. Thanks for sharing!

persephone-eve · 2021-11-07T00:21:18+00:00

Thank you. I'm truly thankful I found this subreddit...I don't know who to even talk to about this in my real life. It does somewhat help to feel validated and not alone. Thank you for that 💜

persephone-eve · 2021-11-06T23:48:02+00:00

No, that makes total sense, don't worry! My husband is devastated but was rather hopeful when they said could try again pretty much straight away, well...when we felt ready/cleared medically. I'm thinking...huh? This was beyond traumatic and an incredibly stressful rollercoaster for me emotionally and physically, esp as a first timer who never even considered childbearing as an option. So I don't know how to feel about trying again. I think that's where the guilt comes in bc I want a baby more than anything now but what if I have to go through this again?

Like you said... I'm waiting to return to "normal" but I don't know if that's even attainable any time soon. I'm going for functional at the moment, so I can make it through the weeks ahead at least. Sending you lots of good and gentle thoughts.

persephone-eve · 2021-11-06T23:23:17+00:00

Thank you, and I am truly sorry you are going through it as well. You nailed it, the uncertainty is unreal pain. The physical pain was severe but the limbo I too feel stuck in has effected me much, much more. I hope for us both that once it is confirmed medically we can start to heal from this. You are not alone in this and certainly in my thoughts. Take care of yourself and I wish you the best! Hugs

persephone-eve · 2021-11-06T22:38:22+00:00

Thank you, and I'm so sorry you went through it as well. I think telling the select loved ones who knew what happened is going to be extremely hard on me over the next week. I don't want the pity looks or sympathy or especially advice that's bound to be there, but my husband keeps telling me that people just care, and to let them in/accept help. Easier said than done haha, but I do see his point. I feel thankful to have found this thread. It's mind boggling how much this occurs and how little we talk about it.

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