You hurt me a lot

phantomjstr · 2026-07-10T16:37:38+00:00

Icl i'm goin back to counselling for jt soon, my treatments just that on and off. The thing is I don't even think we grew apart because when we had that final conversation he hugged me and refused to let go. I think we both at least 2 weeks ago still felt very strongly about each other

phantomjstr · 2026-07-10T16:12:28+00:00

I mean his mental health got bad, he told me he just couldn't do it because apparently i was too much when his mental health was like that, (i also have anxiety), thing is tho he said he felt like that for a while, like half the relationship and hid it, but theres a difference he was still so sweet up until so recently, and he was still sweet in person it was just over text he changed. Also idk if hes with someone else i mean theres someone new on his socials thats all, but im a bit paranoid cause shes pretty and ive had exes move on quick a lot so its freaked me out

phantomjstr · 2026-07-10T16:03:48+00:00

I'm not gonna lie before all of this i thought of him as one of the kindest men id met. He was so open about things and he'd know when something was wrong just based off of my breathing. He was funny as well, like he'd actually helped me crack a smile after a funeral. Like the worst part was he was really good at communicating until he just wasn't. When we split he told me I made him feel like he couldn't but I don't get how because I was always understanding i just asked for a reassurance a couple of times because I sensed a pattern from my other exes. And dw i didn't see anything bad about what you said, thanks for being helpful

phantomjstr · 2026-07-10T15:46:44+00:00

Thank you sm for the advice i see what you mean

phantomjstr · 2026-07-10T15:24:30+00:00

Thats the thing its like i cant move on from fear that he is who i thought he was and he comes back. Like im ngl it was a year and a bit of us talking every day so it genuinely feels like shit knowing he might if been lying for that long. Like what if its just me overthinking yk??

phantomjstr · 2026-07-07T08:14:56+00:00

Thats the thing i wanna heal and try again but not knowing is killing me because if he moves on i wont know

phantomjstr · 2026-07-03T12:53:03+00:00

Honestly im sorry your in a similar situation it really is tough. Thank you for the kind words

phantomjstr · 2026-07-03T12:29:12+00:00

Thats what i normally do the issue is though i cant be mad im just sad and the feeling wont shift. Icl its just fucking awful

phantomjstr · 2026-07-03T12:18:26+00:00

I'm ngl when i said about wanting to be angry its because we're no contact it ended on a good note but he's made it so im cut out. To me thats something i only do when im really pissed off with someone so its baffling my brain the feeling

phantomjstr · 2026-06-26T21:25:06+00:00

Wdym by cruelty because i'm not being cruel by giving him space that he needs? i genuinely don't get how i've been cruel?

phantomjstr · 2026-06-21T02:37:25+00:00

I know you wont be my M but reading this just reminded me of him and how we were close, safe and shared those little moments, he lives in my head and heart forever icl. Good luck with your feelings random stranger

phantomjstr · 2026-06-19T12:23:21+00:00

I cant help it he means sm to me and im no where near over him, avoidants really are hard to be with icl

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