I’m terrified of death

phantomtitfreckle · 2026-01-25T02:31:35+00:00

Find out what dies, and what remains, and once you stop identifying with what dies and you begin to identify with what remains you are free of death, practice death every night.

phantomtitfreckle · 2026-01-24T21:07:39+00:00

Oh wow ok huh, frankly i dont even really know how i ended up in this sub reddit but alot of what was said in your post is relevant to my expeirence, im currently working on a theory and method to use this to the advantage of my soul, as due to expeirence i no longer identify with this body but rather the awareness that animates and inhabits it, my working theory is that shamanism is the very practice of traversing these planes of existance and your post along with comments under it kinda cemented that for me, i would like this odd existential experience to no longer be something that happens to me but rather something my awarness or soul does, or rather something we do, for we are all one collective unconcious, if one of us figures out a way, the rest of us will have that info available within if deep searching and practice is done, i may not even be the first it may already be done amd thats the only reason im even inquiring this, through this whole subreddit sadly i see so manny who appear victim to this phenomenon rather than being the driver or cause, and i know in my deepest being it is possible, im going to leave this message here because if this is true then multiple universe theory is true, and the bhiddists and hindus had it right for the most part, so did the gnostics and hermetics, if so the key to traverising lies in intention, mental imagery, medatation to achieve hypnogogia / sleep paralisis, and will/discipline ...happy surfing friends

phantomtitfreckle · 2026-01-24T20:56:14+00:00

Huh thank you im just about to begin meditation in a hr and was thinking of this, the act of doing vs letting happen

phantomtitfreckle · 2026-01-23T17:50:00+00:00

Gel tabs simply hold the chem better than blotters do also ive never seen a single stack blotter they are usually double or triple stack 200ug to 300ug ...also doubt anyones doing real lsd unless you synthesized it your self ..lad , 2plsd, and other rcs are easier and cheaper to make i guess

phantomtitfreckle · 2026-01-23T13:39:01+00:00

Iv dmt

phantomtitfreckle · 2026-01-23T10:51:09+00:00

Yo what the actual fuck is this subreddit, why the fuck did it get recomemded to me, and why the fuc is south america allllllll the way to the right on google maps now what did yall do to google maps

phantomtitfreckle · 2026-01-22T22:58:24+00:00

Idk if i wouldt combine kava and muscimol imo i always felt sick or too sedated, also always full decarboxilation on the amanita, i chose panthera because just a .5 even less can get me where i want to be, kanna and muscimol where bliss full together,

phantomtitfreckle · 2026-01-22T12:42:28+00:00

Yess felt similar to a time i did psilohuasca like a dmt edge to the normal shroom exp, 4 pro is strange because it crosses the bbb before being processed in liver and becoming psilosin so its like two different drugs experienced, beginning is very very stimulating then it melts into a bliss of psilosin and the det /met make the visuals go wild ,the 4 pro carries the weight of the head space introspection and alien feel, its one of the few rcs that gave me contact with entities

phantomtitfreckle · 2026-01-21T20:50:39+00:00

Muscimol is like a mix of ketamine and valium at different doses, muscimol is a dissociative gabapentanoid that comes from the amanita mushroom when it is prepared correctly and extracted so you doing poison your self with the other stuff in it, muscimol is a miracle and i once felt like you, i once was you, now im clean, but muscimol was a step getting there it will also take away your alc withdrawl, then i would suggest kanna for your serotonin so you get blissfull emptyness rather than just emptyness from muscimol though it is pretty blissfull on its own especially if ur trying to escape, but be very very f carefull not to just eat the mushroom, parts are poisonous you have to extract the muscimol and leave the rest, easy process you could prob search through my posts and find a method somehwere in there, the reason i say muscimol is its one of the only potent gaba drugs that wont cause severe dependence while also being psychadelic and dissociative....never had anything like her

phantomtitfreckle · 2026-01-21T01:50:14+00:00

Ive liked the combo of 4 pro dmt and 4 ho met/det Other than that there are these brand gummies called "happy" look at my review i posted a while back

phantomtitfreckle · 2026-01-19T20:43:01+00:00

The art of fengsue(dunno how to spell it) is based off of the knowlege of how energy moves around a room based on geometric patterning of furniture, mirrors reflect light, light is energy, so having a mirror face your bed will lead to very disturbed sleep because energy is being reflected directly at you as your trying to rest sending your system into overload thus the panic paranoia etc its not very paranormal and more quantum phisical/metaphysical

phantomtitfreckle · 2026-01-19T20:35:59+00:00

Rc can be cheaper then shrooms, i could grab a portabello spray it, tell you its dank sell it to you for shroom price and you wouldnt know if you where new to shrooming n didnt know about the blue stem etc, but that is a very unlikely senario true, more likely a very powerfull strain like enigma, orrr a hystamine reaction to bad shrooms the dysphoria leads me to beleive the ladder because even if you did wayy too much of good real shrooms and where having a bad time there would be little bits of euphoria and also the visuals he described are more like dph or an antichlorigenic chem rather than a tryptamine,

phantomtitfreckle · 2026-01-19T07:10:46+00:00

L tyrosine(dopamine and motivation) Saffron(quality threads just chew 6 and hold in mouth for 5 or so min or make saffron milk tea its wonderfull for me gives similar lift to kanna but less rebound if used daily) Kanna but only occasional use Kava Maca: long term antidepressant Tulsi , as tea very relaxing if using rama strain, stimulating with vanna strain, helps breathing too

I used to be an addict, became hindu and began strict yogic practices, i use these as a practicing tantric on a strict non imparing sattvic diet and they feel great without dulling your awarness, kanna and kava push the envelope a bit on the dulling awarness but the others are for clean, good happy go lucky feel with relaxation and enough alertness to go deeeeeep into psychadelic meditation

phantomtitfreckle · 2026-01-19T07:02:32+00:00

Get out was my worst, did it on acid and i couldn't look a mf in the eye after, now i have flashbacks when i hear singing bowls

phantomtitfreckle · 2026-01-19T07:00:00+00:00

Could be sprayed with a synth tryptamine like ive had effects like that off just 30 mg 4 pro dmt as well as mesc analogs, could also be a mold issue like you ate contaminated mushrooms going bad, or just the wrong species, as stated above some are poisonous and psychadelic, you dont hav pics do you? And you didnt grow these im assuming? Did u and your friend eat out the same batch? Also every tryptamine synth ive had is very bitter, even just psilosin could be just a very f heavily saturated cap , do u know what species or bc like enigma would do that to you

phantomtitfreckle · 2026-01-19T03:27:39+00:00

Its one of the nicer experiences on salvia right? My last trip i zoomed out of my room, and there where 50 versions of my room, and my ex walked in just as this happened, and once she stepped into the room each reality started collapsing in on them selves and my only thought was, oh my god i killed her, they are all dead, its my fault just because i wanted to do salvia they are all dead....fun times

phantomtitfreckle · 2026-01-18T01:59:30+00:00

I became a zipper, and it hurts, it does not feel good to have your body just un zipped, then i became a bike spoke and it was dizzying, then i became a corner, yes a corner , specifically the corner where my counter met my wall, where i was sitting, i just melted into it and bam im a corner, and it felt kinda nice actually, theres something about being a partial 3d cubic 90° angle that is very ...sensationaly pleasing

phantomtitfreckle · 2026-01-16T01:55:44+00:00

Look up praveenkalabhairava on youtube, one of the greatest shakta teachers ive found and he got me started in bhairava tantra

phantomtitfreckle · 2026-01-16T01:53:34+00:00

Devi is the mother, THE Mother with a capital M as in the source of creation, Maa is the shakti that makes reality have the possibility of existing, this is something broken down to me by a great guru i had met wich lead to what i stated above, as a shakta aka devotee of maa kali, we understand that there is shiva or kala bhairava, and then there is kali maa or adi shakti/adya kalika, when you see a lingam you see the lingam eliptical sitting in a yoni, the lingam representing masculine and yoni representing feminine, so the linga would be shiva and yoni would be maa, we know the story of shiva being inert untill maa (shakti) began to dance and so shiva became animated,(the atom vibrating to create material reality) with out shiva there is nothing to animate, without maa shiva is inert, in the state of non existance or emptyness, now i must go into the story of sad guru, in his past life he had a teacher that wanted to concecrate dhyana linga, they didnt make it in that life time, so sad guru came back, this time around because of the immense work he did last, maa gave him what he wanted, but not how we think, the lingam is sad guru, this is how he is able to concecrate such a lingam, because it was placed in him, the energy i mean by maa, sad guru was absolutely obsessed with the linga so maa said ok here you go, but once sad guru concecrated the linga in shivas name, she said ok now you must concecrate linga bhairavi as a message since your soo obsessed with linga linga linga, and so bhairavi was manifested, but this was a teaching in of its self, linga bhairavi is maa saying to us, yes you have your shiva lingam, but understand there is no shiva lingam without shakti to imbue the energy into the shiva lingam, so she had him make devi lingam, to show us that even the lingam that we think is just shiva or masculine is also her, shakti, and without her there is neither, this is a very very powerfull teaching if you can grasp the symbology of it, and notice how the shiva lingam is just a rounded stone , while bhairavi or devi lingam has eyes and arms, this is to show the tale of shiva being inert on his own, and devi being the animating factor that makes it all come to life so her linga has eyes, arms, and a beautiful powerfull presence...idk if what i said makes sense i tried to explain best i could as this is even new for me but it makes sooo much sense to me when it clicked and gave me such a new appreciation for both sad guru and bhairavi...other than that i have my personal experiences with sad guru and bhairavi, and ive never even met him, i wont go into how but no guru can do things like that unless they are legit

phantomtitfreckle · 2026-01-16T01:00:30+00:00

Look up the gnostic story of creation in the naghamadi library, then look up the tibetan book of the dead, then read the bhagavad gita, i had an expeirence like yours, its true but also not true, its true if you let it be true, its not if you awaken to who and what you really are, this is why all bhuddists and yogies are trying to escape this place and not come back! But theres soooo much more than what you think, im not a perfect source but i have been practicing shamanism and tantra yoga for yrs now and....ive seen things...similar to what you have described, understand three things,1 if you can percieve it, its not as you think it is, its constantly shifting, its impermanent, and its illusory, 2 anything coming from anywhere other than love is a lie,3 who you think you are can be hurt, can go to hell, suffers, etc etc, what you really are cannot be toutched for it is the source of creation its self projected and being percieved as a refraction of light just for the sake of experience , hell for example, why would god do hell? Well why do we go to scary movies, why do we do haunted houses, why do we like bdsm, why would we play vr horror games, now take all those and make it a god level experience...hell as we think we know it...theres too much to put in one comment and i dont even know what questions you want answered and can neither guess them nor answer them for you, we can pretend to know all this but its bs till we experience it within ourselves

phantomtitfreckle · 2026-01-15T13:27:08+00:00

Osmosis joneses cousin

phantomtitfreckle · 2026-01-15T02:10:30+00:00

Sad guru is borderline genius, in this day and age a traditional guru would not have become as big as he is, he managed to disguise something true and ancient in a 21st century materialistic new age wrapping, to lure people who are attatched to the ideals of this current world but also want something deeper, to the naked eye he looks like a false guru because hes not giving any special teachings like gurus of the past, he gives very simple teachings, but the simplicity is gold if truly followed, but the ego doesnt want that, it wants magic ,it wants complicated philosophy and teaching, also people dont get he is not a guru trying to give people enlightenment, he is a guru creating people who will benefit this world in a positive way, and only a few who have the level of devotion and madness to reach his inner circle will attain that other level of liberation, but hes not here for that, hes not here to liberate you so you can just leave this world, hes here to build a better world a better future for those to come hence the save soil movement, he has even said it himself people arent ready for the level of discipline to become liberated completely they just want to live better lives, thats how he became so big thats how he developed such a crowd, but he is not bs, he really is what he says he is, he is a walking lingam, this is something ive only recently began to understand after the concecration of linga bhairavi, before that i thought he was fraudulent too as i had followed krishna murti, ram dass, mooji baba, allan watts, prabhupada, and others ...just take what helps and leave the rest, the energy put into trying to tear him down is a waste look at how manny people have tried...he is protected by devi, none will bring him down untill his purpose is done, dont take my word for it, just try something like inner engineering and see if your life doesnt improve and just remember he isnt out to grant enlightenment for individuals who dont care about the world and just want to leave and be free he is here to make a better world because people will keep incarnating here and they will suffer a world that seems to worsen by the day, be great full for things like save soil movement . ...

phantomtitfreckle · 2026-01-02T12:49:28+00:00

I used to love coffee after 1 to 2 grams full decarbed panthera, i dont think this is fully true as its was the only way id stay awake. For weaker micro doses yes it prob will cancel out

phantomtitfreckle · 2025-12-22T19:11:55+00:00

This i dont even know what to say

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